Mtphc

I'm still drinking and I can't stop.

I might lose it all

Mtphc

I have a great job

And might lose it all

This is my time of need

Mtphc

God I hate love

This is the reason for all this

emme99

Mtphc, please pour out whatever you have and drink some water. Tomorrow can be day one, but no better time to start than the present. Maybe join the April class. You can do this.

Mtphc

It could be beuttiful, but the most painful ever

Anna

Get rid of the alcohol you have and stop drinking. You can decide right now to now go down any further. Make the choice to be sober.

trachemys

You're in a hole with a shovel called alcohol.

Stop digging.

Pour it out and go to bed.

uncle holmes

Quit while you're ahead!!! Get rid of that alcohol now!!! Get yourself to an AA meeting as soon as possible!!! Call the AA hotline and tell them you need a meeting now!!!

waynetheking

Ask God for help. What do you have to lose?

Dee74

Hey mtphc I'm sorry for your pain but drinking never healed a broken heart. In my experience it just made the pain worse.

Put down the bottle, and be gentle with yourself.

Get on with living - I'm sure this is not the last time you'll feel love - be ready for it next time by being the best you you can be.

ScottFromWI

Your addiction would love to have you think that Mphc but it's BS. You can absolutely stop. It's not going to be easy, but it is a simple choice you can make. You could call your doctor, go to a meeting, check with your local rehab/alchol resource center, your priest/pastor, a good family friend, there's lots of ways to get started.

If you choose to keep drinking, you definitely could lose it all. I've seen it happen to people around me and it's not pretty. There are plenty of people who have been in exactly the same place you are - or worse and turned things around. You need to look no further than the forums here to hear those stores.

So why not just cut the BS and get moving? You still have a job, a wife and lots of other good things that are worth fighting for. Stand up and do it.

Stayingsassy

Mtphc. We dont have any magic words to make the difficult road of sobriety begin for you. We would help if we could, but it has to come from you.

This is why with eight months or even many years of sobriety we still do not touch alcohol, not even a drop, because that can start a bender that doesnt end until we are in the ground.

don't wait for a bottom that is six feet deep.

Mtphc

I'll be honest Ive thought about ending it all

Delizadee

You only lose it all if you let it kill you, then there's nothing at all.

So where you are, there's nothing left to lose.

I lost pretty much everything, and almost my life. You don't have to get there. It's your choice.

You have more than you know and better than anything your life.

Reach out asap in real time. Keep posting here.

Delizadee

Nope. Call someone or get your a$$ to the ER
Drinking is NOT a reason to purposefully decide to lay yourself in the ground.

Coming from someone who's been in that dark hole too. Glad you are talking about it- that means you KNOW you need help and you WANT help you just aren't sure how to get it.
But it's not the actual thought. You just dont know how to find your way out.

You do not need to do this alone. But there is only so much we can over the web my dear.

What can we do to help and what can we do to help you help yourself?

Stayingsassy

Booze talking.

find yourself in there. the person in there has a daughter he doesnt want to let down for life. Booze voice just wants you to either drink yourself to death or finish yourself off entirely.

classic alcoholic thinking.

ScottFromWI

That's not an uncommon thing for those in dire straits from drinking, which you seem to be. If you are literally having suicidal thoughts, dialing 911 is the next step you need to take. I hope that perhaps you have sobered up a little since last night and things perhaps look clearer today?

Hawkeye13

Dee74

If you need help please at least call a crisis line?

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html

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Mtphc

Well did come close to ending it. Was through a family crisis and had already been into 6 days of my binge I drank tons of vodka, and then thought it would a brilliant idea to take some Ativan pills, well that didn't work out too well. I ended up in ER, then had to go to behaverioul health right that for a day and a half

Long story short is that I was almost 9 months sober, then all to voice came.to my head telling me that one pint of vodka is fine and nope, horrible idea