Getting sick in early recovery is a mind trip
Getting sick in early recovery is a mind trip
I’m only 13 days out from my last binge followed by 4 to 5 days of hangover/withdrawal.
Yesterday I got SICK. Terribly sick. Stomach cramps, diarrhea, projectile vomiting. There is a nasty bug going around my little town.
I had really important things to do yesterday. I couldn’t stop feeling horrendous guilt over the fact that I was sick, because in the past it would have been self-inflicted. I had to keep reminding myself I hadn’t done anything wrong. It was really messing with my head.
Can anyone relate?
Yesterday I got SICK. Terribly sick. Stomach cramps, diarrhea, projectile vomiting. There is a nasty bug going around my little town.
I had really important things to do yesterday. I couldn’t stop feeling horrendous guilt over the fact that I was sick, because in the past it would have been self-inflicted. I had to keep reminding myself I hadn’t done anything wrong. It was really messing with my head.
Can anyone relate?
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I've been grateful when sick because I knew I didn't cause it. And I've taken it as signals to rest and follow dr orders (two colds and strep in early-mid fall of last year).
Learning to just "be" and to fill hours when I can't "do" stuff, and drinking isn't an option, is something I have had to work on for sure; being sick a few times was a surprise blessing to do that.
Learning to just "be" and to fill hours when I can't "do" stuff, and drinking isn't an option, is something I have had to work on for sure; being sick a few times was a surprise blessing to do that.
I had really important things to do yesterday. I couldn’t stop feeling horrendous guilt over the fact that I was sick, because in the past it would have been self-inflicted. I had to keep reminding myself I hadn’t done anything wrong. It was really messing with my head.
Can anyone relate?
I did embrace that I felt like crap from not drinking.
In my first few weeks sober I caught an awful cold from my son. I remember feeling REALLY demoralized and miserable, because I was looking for that early-recovery pink cloud sensation. I remember also feeling conflicted about taking it easy and laying on my couch, because it reminded me of being hungover and incapable of doing anything. I had to keep reminding myself that it was OK because this WASN'T self-inflicted.
So yeah. Totally relate!
So yeah. Totally relate!
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