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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: South Korea
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Here again
I'm not going to drink anymore. Today is day 1.
I live in South Korea. It's a bad place to be for an alcoholic. The theme of the country is alcohol it seems. I've quit before for over a year. That dang voice just won one time and it was downhill from there. I'm battling it now, but I'm going to win.
I live in South Korea. It's a bad place to be for an alcoholic. The theme of the country is alcohol it seems. I've quit before for over a year. That dang voice just won one time and it was downhill from there. I'm battling it now, but I'm going to win.
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There we go! I was trying to post on my phone and wasn't doing very well. I'm on the computer now.
I'm basically home alone and very tempted to buy something now. It almost feels like a compulsion. Like, a panic if I don't do it that I will never get a chance again. My husband has taken away pretty much everything. I don't even have any money to go to the store, but my sons wallet it sitting here. I'm not going to do that. I don't want the guilt that I would go through again. My husband will be home in a few hours then I'll be ok. I read through the AVRT site out loud to him last night. I think he understands and believes that I'm serious again.
I'm basically home alone and very tempted to buy something now. It almost feels like a compulsion. Like, a panic if I don't do it that I will never get a chance again. My husband has taken away pretty much everything. I don't even have any money to go to the store, but my sons wallet it sitting here. I'm not going to do that. I don't want the guilt that I would go through again. My husband will be home in a few hours then I'll be ok. I read through the AVRT site out loud to him last night. I think he understands and believes that I'm serious again.
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Join Date: Oct 2015
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Yep, do indeed battle because...
Alcohol too much is a worthless waste of time that only injures the user.
Your life is worth more than what the drink costs and will cost you.
AA is less painful than the consequences of alcoholism too, just to add.
You must realize the power to drink is in your hands, you make the choice to drink, you do it, because you want to do it.
Stay in the sun... switch up your whole lifestyle and world to some thing that fits you that you have always wanted to do, and focus on being selfless. Your life could be so much more worse than it is, count your blessings when you say 'I will win'.
Alcohol too much is a worthless waste of time that only injures the user.
Your life is worth more than what the drink costs and will cost you.
AA is less painful than the consequences of alcoholism too, just to add.
You must realize the power to drink is in your hands, you make the choice to drink, you do it, because you want to do it.
Stay in the sun... switch up your whole lifestyle and world to some thing that fits you that you have always wanted to do, and focus on being selfless. Your life could be so much more worse than it is, count your blessings when you say 'I will win'.
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I am in tears. I just walked into the kitchen and it's pretty much spotless. My husband was mad at me last night for drinking and started throwing things and breaking all of the bottles he found. My son felt sorry for me and did all of the dishes. He also cleaned my laundry room which has never really been cleared and organized since we moved in about 8 months ago. He's 17. I think he even washed a load of laundry.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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Glad you're back Nicholi! 
Boy do I know that awful compulsion/obsession to drink and the panic that accompanies it! The good news is that the obsession fades over time and with it the panic. Keep putting distance between you and your last drink and you're on your way. Keep posting and know that you really can do this!
Boy do I know that awful compulsion/obsession to drink and the panic that accompanies it! The good news is that the obsession fades over time and with it the panic. Keep putting distance between you and your last drink and you're on your way. Keep posting and know that you really can do this!
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Join Date: Sep 2015
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WB. South Korea wow.. well you have a lot of support here from the US! 
You do sound really positive and motivated to quit. Take it slow .. Im 17 days sober and day 1 - 7 was hell week.. aim small miss small !
Cheers
Dru -
You do sound really positive and motivated to quit. Take it slow .. Im 17 days sober and day 1 - 7 was hell week.. aim small miss small !Cheers
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Still here.
Day 3! I feel pretty good. I even exercised yesterday. My husband made a deal with me that when I go 30 days he will give me my debit card back. It's annoying not to be able to have any money but I understand where he's coming from. I haven't had anymore cravings.
Part of my Big Plan was picturing a day in the future I'll drink again. It will be the year 2050 and I'll be living in Australia while my husband is on 2 weeks on/1 week off for his job there.
It seems to be working. I think the beast believes it. 
Part of my Big Plan was picturing a day in the future I'll drink again. It will be the year 2050 and I'll be living in Australia while my husband is on 2 weeks on/1 week off for his job there.
It seems to be working. I think the beast believes it. 
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