malamute100

10 months since my siezure , 8 months sober and still having paws symptoms .
Ive learnt a lot over this time .
My conclusion is that I kindled so hard over 15 years that when I stopped CT the seizure was inevitable .
I'm currently having windows and waves from A host of 50 symptoms from PAWS .
I think I'm slightly better that 6 months ago but only very slightly .
I'm more upbeat because I know all the science about what's going on in my excited brain .
Basicly it's just out of balance , to much glutamate to less gaba .

I think my symtons resemble more towards a protracted benzo user than an alcoholic , that makes sense as they both target the same receptors in the brain .

My worst symptom atm is insomnia , it's hit hard , it came back strong in June , I can't make any plans to do anything anymore cause I just don't know if I will sleep .

Anyways I will keep fighting and strong .
Time is the only healer for me

Bird615

Congratulations on 8 months. You're right, time is a healer, the longer you stay sober, the better you will start to feel. Keep on going.

sleepie

Hi malamute, I have benzo withdrawal and my dr. suggested magnesium supplements, maybe you can ask your doctor about it too?

zjw

good job malamute! It'll ease up your doing good. I think it helps to have half an idea what is going on. it makes ya feel ok about what your going through.

Rar

Congratulations on your 8 months, Malamute. That is some impressive time. I hope you feel better soon.

JK130

Insomnia is so frustrating, and debilitating. You have such a great attitude. I hope you get some good sleep soon! What have you tried?

Notimetoloose

8 months is awesome.
Congratulations...

I also had awful PAWS symptoms...pretty much past tense now at 22 months.

...just wondering if you are getting any chunks of time symptom free?

Truckinon

Hi malamute, I also suffer intensely from paws. Just over a year from a brutal withdrawal. My therapist, an addictions counselor, always stresses that I am getting a LITTLE better, so at least I see progress. It's all going to take time.

I am very interested in some of the terminology you use. What is 'kindled', 'CT', 'windows and waves'? I have read some paws literature, maybe you have a link?

I am just starting to sleep a little better, sometimes get 3-5 hours, it took almost a year. Still get horrible dreams and terrifying flashbacks. I am fighting hard to stay sober, I don't want this crap to reset.

Yes, keep fighting and stay strong!

silentrun

Congrats on 8 months. You have been getting hit pretty hard and I am glad it's starting to come in waves instead of full force.

MariahGayle

8 months is awesome! Congratulations!!!

malamute100

Hi , thanks for the reply
Kindled is when sombody keeps on withdrawing and reinstating , eg like me , binge drinking then compleatly sober for a few days then binge again.
It's the worst kind of process for our fragile brains . It's better to keep drinking thAn kindle .

CT means to cold turkey

Windows are hours or days or weeks when we have no symptoms during recovery , everything is great .

Waves are the opposite , waves of symptoms during recovery

Hope that's helps , I as you read kindled hard for 15 years , I'm currently having a few windows of good days however still the waves are much more

Soberwolf

Congrats on 8 months Mal

PurpleKnight

8 Months is fantastic!!

Fly N Buy

Well done on 8 months!!!

Thank you for sharing the details of your journey ........no telling who this may help!

Keep coming back and keep us updated

Hawkeye13

Glad you know what's going on and are seeing some progress.

Thank you for updating us--I wondered how you were