Cant help feeling like a blow out
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Originally Posted by Eddiebuckle 
Don't assume that you can ever choose to go back to the "fun" period of your drinking career. If that was the case, I doubt any of us would be here. Those that "make it" do so because we have accepted that there are no short cuts, vacations, or do-overs when it comes to alcohol. We do what we have to stay sober, or we die.
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Originally Posted by MelindaFlowers
The first few things that came to my mind, reasons I can't have a blowout:
1. I couldn't do one more HANGOVER. Ever heard of kindling? My hangover would last for a week.
2. A week later I'd want another blowout.
3. I would be throwing all my hard work, progress, growth, and healing down the toilet.
4. If I drank again, what I would get would not even resemble what I might expect. It would be a huge disappointment of sickness and regret.
No thank you.
And about the old AA saying, "if you can't remember your last drunk you probably haven't had it yet...?"
I remember my last drunk clear as a freakin' bell.
(370~ish days later)
1. I couldn't do one more HANGOVER. Ever heard of kindling? My hangover would last for a week.
2. A week later I'd want another blowout.
3. I would be throwing all my hard work, progress, growth, and healing down the toilet.
4. If I drank again, what I would get would not even resemble what I might expect. It would be a huge disappointment of sickness and regret.
No thank you.
And about the old AA saying, "if you can't remember your last drunk you probably haven't had it yet...?"
I remember my last drunk clear as a freakin' bell.
(370~ish days later)
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One more here...had 7 years sober and decided to have a blowout (really just decided to have a few beers). It lasted for 8 years and almost killed me. My experience is that the idea of going cold turkey after the blowout is just the AV blowing smoke up your arse.
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I have a fear of the 'Around 2 year' mark...I am almost there and when I read posts like yours it brings my fear into my reality..
Let me explain, I had a bad opiate addiction, decided to never use again, and blew it at 2 years, the cravings and desire were something else...I got lucky I just had the one blow out and never used again...I mean lucky, I had such a bad experience after so much hard work I literally got scared straight. (over 30 years ago)..
...Smoking was the same, relentless desire at about the 2 to 2½ after quitting... real grit your teeth stuff, I stayed quit with the help of 'Allen Carr's' book and online support. That was 6ish years ago..
Every time I started drinking again the fear I had as I would struggled to quit or slowdown was "What if I can not quit, what if this is the one that takes me"...what sort of madness is that!? Alcohol was controlling me.
My heart goes out as I read the struggles of those with a couple of years sobriety trying to regain some leverage after a relapse.
IDK, I have tried to find something specific about the 2 to 3 ish year mark online to no avail.
I would be interested to hear if others have had this experience as well.
Let me explain, I had a bad opiate addiction, decided to never use again, and blew it at 2 years, the cravings and desire were something else...I got lucky I just had the one blow out and never used again...I mean lucky, I had such a bad experience after so much hard work I literally got scared straight. (over 30 years ago)..
...Smoking was the same, relentless desire at about the 2 to 2½ after quitting... real grit your teeth stuff, I stayed quit with the help of 'Allen Carr's' book and online support. That was 6ish years ago..
Every time I started drinking again the fear I had as I would struggled to quit or slowdown was "What if I can not quit, what if this is the one that takes me"...what sort of madness is that!? Alcohol was controlling me.
My heart goes out as I read the struggles of those with a couple of years sobriety trying to regain some leverage after a relapse.
IDK, I have tried to find something specific about the 2 to 3 ish year mark online to no avail.
I would be interested to hear if others have had this experience as well.
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