dsmaxis10

So I gave my parents all my money it's weak can't rely on doing stuff like that forever but for now I'll get another day.

ScottFromWI

If it works today that's a victory in my book. I think you do realize you need a better plan though, right?

Gottalife

Sounds like you are going to any lengths dsm. Good move.

dsmaxis10

Ya I need a better plan. Found some money was driving to the store and turned around. Oh a few won't hurt then the next day it would be more then more. I had four years before so I know I can do it. Got to get back on the beam. I think doing the fifth step helped me get threw it (pg) 75 The feeling that the drink problem has disappeared will often come strongly. That's how I felt after I did it .Have to move forward threw the steps so I'll recoil as if from a hot flame.

Bh28

How old are you?

thisisme

Why suffer alone?
Have you thought about getting some 3d support?

dsmaxis10

I'm 36 but I'm on disability for schizophrenia. I still have symtoms even with medication. I can't afford to live anywhere else my parents are leaving me there place in there will. I used to be a union carpenter but I've been in 15 mental hospitals all sober.

Bh28

I'm 34 mate and also on disability, still live with my mother.

zjw

I like scotts point. Sometimes you do what you gotta do to get by no biggie there.

Carlotta

You did the right thing DS, hang in there and maybe call someone from AA and see if you can go to a meeting today?

You just reached a 2 weeks milestones which is huge (beginning is always the hardest) and we know you really struggled and worked hard to get there.
Please don't blow it and set your sights in getting that 30 days chip instead. The longer you stay sober, the easier it will get

dsmaxis10

I've believed in GOD for a long time and as soon as I take a drink I lose my connection. I feel connected again and I don't want to give that up.

zjw

gotta crawl before you can walk and there aint nothing wrong with being dependant on GOD either.