Were you excessive in other ways before you began drinking?
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Kuala Lumpur
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Yes as far back as I remember I have always been "something-freak", even years before I start drinking.
A few of my extremist activities included:
- Take Kwon Do: became very good and so into it at the age of 14-15,until I broke my left hand and stopped it !
- playing music: right after tae kwon do for a year, I was into it day and night ( playing keyboard) , and one day stopped it and till now never touched any keyboard/piano!
- in high school : a book-freak and study freak ( but with average results)!
- religion: I got sober with the help of religion and it kept me sober with 3 (painful) years and then I messed up everything in life. they call it dry sober right ? taking away alcohol, and not replacing it with steps ..for me was painful indeed!
still I am the same, but slightly better , coz at least I talk to my sponsor if I wanna start something new in my life.
cheers ~
A few of my extremist activities included:
- Take Kwon Do: became very good and so into it at the age of 14-15,until I broke my left hand and stopped it !
- playing music: right after tae kwon do for a year, I was into it day and night ( playing keyboard) , and one day stopped it and till now never touched any keyboard/piano!
- in high school : a book-freak and study freak ( but with average results)!
- religion: I got sober with the help of religion and it kept me sober with 3 (painful) years and then I messed up everything in life. they call it dry sober right ? taking away alcohol, and not replacing it with steps ..for me was painful indeed!
still I am the same, but slightly better , coz at least I talk to my sponsor if I wanna start something new in my life.
cheers ~
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Pacific Coast
Posts: 785
I was never really a binge drinker, and before I became alcoholic my tendency to obsess or to be excessive wasn’t particularly abnormal (I think we all have it to some degree — it’s part of being human).
My alcohol consumption increased gradually as my tolerance did. It finally hit a maximum beyond which it only made me sicker. Would that I could have stopped at that point (or earlier) but by then the physical dependence and warped thinking/perception (the "mental obsession") had set in. I tried to stop many times unsuccessfully. It was years before the balance finally tipped and I truly wanted to be sober more than I wanted to be drunk.
I find that in sobriety I have even less of a tendency to obsess or go to extremes than I did before I became a drunk. It seems like the alcohol burned out most of those circuits. Or maybe I’m just getting old!
My alcohol consumption increased gradually as my tolerance did. It finally hit a maximum beyond which it only made me sicker. Would that I could have stopped at that point (or earlier) but by then the physical dependence and warped thinking/perception (the "mental obsession") had set in. I tried to stop many times unsuccessfully. It was years before the balance finally tipped and I truly wanted to be sober more than I wanted to be drunk.
I find that in sobriety I have even less of a tendency to obsess or go to extremes than I did before I became a drunk. It seems like the alcohol burned out most of those circuits. Or maybe I’m just getting old!
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