walkbeformakrun

How are you today GD? Please let us know.

SoberHoopsFan

Addiction has made you apathetic. You still have the same thoughts about drinking as you've always had, you know it's bad for you, you know it's wrong, you know you should quit for good. But addiction makes you not care. That's common. Stop drinking and you won't have to recover from anything ever again. Or keep drinking and suffering the consequences. You know that already. I Hope you free yourself for good this time.

gardendiva

Thanks everyone. I do have a good psych Dr. I went off Zoloft and obviously that didn't go well. Unfortunately I started drinking again before accepting that I had to go back on it. My depression has lifted to the point that I could stop drinking again but the apathy and ambivilance is overwhelming. I want to drink without the consequences. (Insert serenity prayer here.)

Thanks for listening.

Overit23

Would really try and get yourself some kind of help~Try and do something to get yourself out of where you are. Go for a walk, call a good friend, maybe call your doctor and talk him, or call a counselor...

biminiblue

Was there some side effect of the Zoloft? Zoloft has some pretty serious black box warnings regarding side effects.

Have you tried other SSRIs or even other types/classes of antidepressants? They don't all act the same. Keep trying!

I'm so glad to hear you've stopped drinking

biminiblue

Oh, so I just saw in Cow's thread that you are still drinking? I guess I misread.

I hope you have a good Sunday, regardless.

gardendiva

To clarify: I'm back on Zoloft but still drinking. No bad side effects, I just have a habit of going off it every once in awhile because I hate the idea of having to be on it for the rest of my life. (Insert serenity prayer here.)

courage2

Another way of looking at it is to be incredibly grateful that there's a medication that works to help you avoid the worst of depression and that doesn't cause you serious side effects, and you can safely stay on it for the rest of your life. I don't know about zoloft per se, I'm on Lexapro and I'm so grateful to be so much better. It helps to keep me sober to know the meds wouldn't work as well if I were drinking.

violetflame

I have been struggling with anxiety and depression all my life. Recently I was diagnosed as Bipolar type 2. I have been drinking on and off meds for the past 20 years. Right now I am in a place in which I don't care. I am taking meds and also drinking. But there is a part of me that does care. The part of me that wants to salvage my relationship with my daughter. The part of me that wants to wake up feeling good and productive. Find that part of you that wants to fight for something. I am sure all of u is not ambivalent