Hexipuff

PurpleKnight

Hey Hex!! . . . what happened today?

Stoogy

Hi Hex, sorry to hear this, you will feel better if you can talk about it hopefully my friend.
We are all here for you.

hope22

oh no what happened?

ScottFromWI

Why not stop at half way before it becomes a full bottle Hexi? You haven't been here on SR for a long time, what happened between then and now?

Hexipuff

I cannot put a finger on what has caused today. But that is usually the case will me. I go through lots of things and stress but when I hit a good spot I destroy it

Soberpotamus

Hit a good spot... do you mean everything's going great and you wanted to drink? If so, that's a typical thing for an alcoholic to do. To want to extend the good feelings by drinking.

25 months? Well, that's a great job on your part. I hope you can put the bottle down, throw it out.

zjw

like a subconscous desire to be self destructive?

I swear somewhere in my head i wanna destroy myself. Why like it or not i fight to make proper choices each day cause somewhere in that noggin of mine theres another voice thats like pff screw it who cares.

Gotta fight those urges.

just dust yourself off and get back on the wagon. its not the end of the world.

Hexipuff

Thanks you lovely people - I feel so guilty that I have not been here for so long. Go a bit above myself didn't I? IDIOT that I am

I will be back and hopefully all the better for it.

xx

Soberpotamus

Not an idiot. Addicted.

Hexipuff

Needed to hear that SoberJennie

ImperfectlyMe

Hope you're ok hex

SoberCAH

Please come back and stay.

zjw

if you beat yourself up you will stay in that hole. Just dust yourself off instead and get back on the wagon no biggie.

guilt is not a good or beneficial emotion for folks like us it'll just keep us down. Dont feed it. Just move forward and put the drink down.

HeadLump

You're already back, Hexipuff, and we're here for you

olometal

You have already proven you can do it. You can keep going.

GracieLou

Back away from the bottle. Throw the rest out. Stop.

FeenixxRising

As Jennie pointed out, you're not an idiot, just a person dealing with addiction. Hex, your profile says you're a 12-Stepping bunny. Are you still involved with AA/NA? Do you have someone in the program you can call? A slip after 25 months sucks, but it isn't the end of the world, so try not to let it turn into a days long spree.

Dee74

Hey Hexipuff - if you've wandered off the road, the important thing is not to panic.

Take a breath or two, fan that flame of recovery within you, dump whatever's left and get back on Recovery Rd

Make this an abberation, not a ongoing catastrophe

D

huntingtontx

Hi hex, I am glad you posted. I am glad you came for support. You still have that 25 months, so you know you can do it. We are all here for you. Thanks for posting.