Laying here , no drinks since Sat.
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Laying here , no drinks since Sat.
So my AV said today, go ahead, stop for a drink. Nope. Why mess it up.? Then I come home, to my miserable spouse, who's trapped by her own convictions. Open up the mail, and the enabling spouse, has a sales tax lien on my record for another 30 K. So on top of the home being foreclosed, the mother in law dying from bladder cancer, in the living room, that is now here bedroomSo instead of talking about it. No one talks to each other. So, I suffer in silence day after day. On top of this, My Add son is out again,
, so naturally, I'm on edge. Do I want a drink , nope. Am I sober, nope, just Dry. I'm just freaking angry, at everyone. I don't want a drink I want a solution.
, so naturally, I'm on edge. Do I want a drink , nope. Am I sober, nope, just Dry. I'm just freaking angry, at everyone. I don't want a drink I want a solution.
I have a solution. AA. Through AA I have been able to stay sober no matter what, and feel ok inside, even with tragedy all around me. And I've been of use to others.
Through AA I have learnt it's an inside job. The external environment often aggravated the way I felt, but it didn't cause it. When the internals were sorted, I was able to handle the externals much better.
It wasn't an easy solution, I resisted almost to my last breath. But it has proved totally reliable.
Through AA I have learnt it's an inside job. The external environment often aggravated the way I felt, but it didn't cause it. When the internals were sorted, I was able to handle the externals much better.
It wasn't an easy solution, I resisted almost to my last breath. But it has proved totally reliable.
So my AV said today, go ahead, stop for a drink. Nope. Why mess it up.? Then I come home, to my miserable spouse, who's trapped by her own convictions. Open up the mail, and the enabling spouse, has a sales tax lien on my record for another 30 K. So on top of the home being foreclosed, the mother in law dying from bladder cancer, in the living room, that is now here bedroomSo instead of talking about it. No one talks to each other. So, I suffer in silence day after day. On top of this, My Add son is out again,
, so naturally, I'm on edge. Do I want a drink , nope. Am I sober, nope, just Dry. I'm just freaking angry, at everyone. I don't want a drink I want a solution.
, so naturally, I'm on edge. Do I want a drink , nope. Am I sober, nope, just Dry. I'm just freaking angry, at everyone. I don't want a drink I want a solution.
Take care.
So my AV said today, go ahead, stop for a drink. Nope. Why mess it up.? Then I come home, to my miserable spouse, who's trapped by her own convictions. Open up the mail, and the enabling spouse, has a sales tax lien on my record for another 30 K. So on top of the home being foreclosed, the mother in law dying from bladder cancer, in the living room, that is now here bedroomSo instead of talking about it. No one talks to each other. So, I suffer in silence day after day. On top of this, My Add son is out again,
, so naturally, I'm on edge. Do I want a drink , nope. Am I sober, nope, just Dry. I'm just freaking angry, at everyone. I don't want a drink I want a solution.
, so naturally, I'm on edge. Do I want a drink , nope. Am I sober, nope, just Dry. I'm just freaking angry, at everyone. I don't want a drink I want a solution.
The 12 steps sounds like a solution
I have a solution. AA. Through AA I have been able to stay sober no matter what, and feel ok inside, even with tragedy all around me. And I've been of use to others.
Through AA I have learnt it's an inside job. The external environment often aggravated the way I felt, but it didn't cause it. When the internals were sorted, I was able to handle the externals much better.
It wasn't an easy solution, I resisted almost to my last breath. But it has proved totally reliable.
Through AA I have learnt it's an inside job. The external environment often aggravated the way I felt, but it didn't cause it. When the internals were sorted, I was able to handle the externals much better.
It wasn't an easy solution, I resisted almost to my last breath. But it has proved totally reliable.
I have always said that AA would be useful for someone who never even had a problem with alcohol. Although the basis of the program is to quit an addiction the foundation tools in the program are serious information on dealing with the ups and downs of life in general. Who couldn't use feeling ok inside no matter the tragedy around them?
Rndz7, I'm sorry that you've got so much on your plate. This program would be of great assistance to you. There's lots of information about many good programs on this board.
I wish you the best.
Breathe. Break it down to the smaller parts. What can you do? Get an attorney for the tax problems. Make some plans to visit MIL, maybe bring her some small tokens of your love and support.
How old is your son?
I don't mean to sound flip or nasty. I find taking a deep breath and knowing "what is, Is." Throwing a drunk at any of these problems only makes it worse. can you get some counseling? does your work have an EAP? does your health insurance cover some mental health counseling? can your GP recommend a low cost, sliding scale therapist? Your local hospital may have a social services department with a referral list.
I hope this helps. You are not alone.
Love from Lenina
How old is your son?
I don't mean to sound flip or nasty. I find taking a deep breath and knowing "what is, Is." Throwing a drunk at any of these problems only makes it worse. can you get some counseling? does your work have an EAP? does your health insurance cover some mental health counseling? can your GP recommend a low cost, sliding scale therapist? Your local hospital may have a social services department with a referral list.
I hope this helps. You are not alone.
Love from Lenina
man. what a bad situation. i hope it improves soon. im not AA. im not even christan. but, i love that serenity prayer.
now that im doing the sober thing, i find that i can still slip into abusing my body in times of stress. remember to eat as best you can, and get a little quiet time every day.
now that im doing the sober thing, i find that i can still slip into abusing my body in times of stress. remember to eat as best you can, and get a little quiet time every day.
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Do I want a drink , nope. Am I sober, nope, just Dry. I'm just freaking angry, at everyone. I don't want a drink I want a solution.
You need your sanity and if your problems are too big why worry about them? I could use some of my own advice i'm far from perfect myself.
In my case in time things eased up my insurmountable problems are gone solutions finally came. Maybe not in the time frame I would have liked but they did come.
hang in there.
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One of my latest lines in tough situations is "so what life goes on"
i worry i'll loose my job and i think what difference does it make. Life will just go on it always does. sometimes you have to just roll with it. you might not like how its going but if you let it get to you it will rob you of your happiness. Going with the flow can stink but it also can be a relief knowing hey i'm doing all i can this is just how it is and move on to a happier thought.
i worry i'll loose my job and i think what difference does it make. Life will just go on it always does. sometimes you have to just roll with it. you might not like how its going but if you let it get to you it will rob you of your happiness. Going with the flow can stink but it also can be a relief knowing hey i'm doing all i can this is just how it is and move on to a happier thought.
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I'm hanging in there.
I'm still dry. Son is out again. I just chased him for 2 hrs. Can't find him. Spouse went to bed, she's had enough of me screaming at her all day. Mother in law, looks like she is dead. Daughter hiding in room. Victim. I will begin eviction proceedings. I'm looking to move out. I don't go to AA. Did it , hate it, did it, hate it,,,,100 times. Oh yeah, wise ass, I don't have pity parties, I vent, it makes me feel better. That, and exercising 6 days a week. I am summoning the courage to remain sober. One day at a time. I don't have a safe place, other than this wacko house. It's not a home today, just a house. Tomm a little walking, working, eating, and keeping a balanced act.
Rndz7.
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Simple....your simple
Seems pretty simple...you would prefer to do everything and anything but fix yourself. Stop trying to change others and get your own house in order. You can't control others including your wife and try to stop the pity party it's only hurting you.
The 12 steps sounds like a solution
The 12 steps sounds like a solution
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I vent, it makes me feel better. That, and exercising 6 days a week
Spouse went to bed, she's had enough of me screaming at her all day.
Sometimes all you can do is shrug your shoulders or throw your hands in the air and say screw it. A lot of times its not worth freaking out over. Freaking out never really accomplishes much but of course venting and blowing off the steam I suppose eases it some but a heathier way is to go for the walk instead. i felt like a wack job going for multiple walks a day but my skin was crawling i was so stinken pissed off.
hang in there.
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