Returning to SR
Member
Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: southern indiana
Posts: 2,145
i'm from the other side of the fence, but I remember reading your posts when I was trying to regain my sanity, trying to understand alcoholism and the addiction, and recovery.
you helped me have insight. thank you.
welcome back.
you helped me have insight. thank you.
welcome back.
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Canada
Posts: 4,580
Wow. Thank you all so much. So many nice sentiments from some ole SR pals and new ones I hope to know better. I'm home tucked in bed. I did not have the glass or two of wine that was once again becoming habitual. I did stop for a DQ chocolate shake though 
Today's decision did not come after some near death experience nor embarrassing, shameful debaucle...as it has before. I was not consuming the amounts of younger years...
Nevertheless, I realize I was sinking into a life of waste, excuses, lies, unattended tasks, denials....
I have been slowly giving up on the adventure of life and its possibilities. I've been spinning wheels and the ruts are growing deeper. Eventually, there will be no possibilities. I will be sitting in a chair...drunk and alone...wondering bout what could have been.
I really don't want that.
This place was wonderful company for me...and it kept me sober long enough to see physical and mental progress. Sobriety was by no means simple..but it was definitely way more interesting, progressive....and well...open...to life.
Thank you all....I really, really hope I keep seeing you. Day 1 down.
Today's decision did not come after some near death experience nor embarrassing, shameful debaucle...as it has before. I was not consuming the amounts of younger years...
Nevertheless, I realize I was sinking into a life of waste, excuses, lies, unattended tasks, denials....
I have been slowly giving up on the adventure of life and its possibilities. I've been spinning wheels and the ruts are growing deeper. Eventually, there will be no possibilities. I will be sitting in a chair...drunk and alone...wondering bout what could have been.
I really don't want that.
This place was wonderful company for me...and it kept me sober long enough to see physical and mental progress. Sobriety was by no means simple..but it was definitely way more interesting, progressive....and well...open...to life.
Thank you all....I really, really hope I keep seeing you. Day 1 down.
Adventures In SpaceTime
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Ottawa, Canada
Posts: 5,827
Welcome back eh!! 
Take it easy, Nuudawn.
It's all very doable even when it looks somewhat other.
You've made the right choices to quit again. The early
pains are worth the life-long gains.
Take it easy, Nuudawn.
It's all very doable even when it looks somewhat other.
You've made the right choices to quit again. The early
pains are worth the life-long gains.
Member
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Strailya
Posts: 8,025
Hey Nuudawn, I also remember your contributions with fondness (and one of your prior scary avatars with fear 
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Welcome back to SR. Its good that you are wise enough to stop the drinking before it got out fo control. We've all tried moderate drinking and I have as yet to hear one successful case of an alcoholic being able to control their drinking. Theoretically possible (like contracting HIV orally) but in reality, not one actual case.
Stay close and stay strong !
)Welcome back to SR. Its good that you are wise enough to stop the drinking before it got out fo control. We've all tried moderate drinking and I have as yet to hear one successful case of an alcoholic being able to control their drinking. Theoretically possible (like contracting HIV orally) but in reality, not one actual case.
Stay close and stay strong !
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Sydney Australia
Posts: 4,225
Nuudawn. I missed not seeing you around, and am sorry that you were lulled back into some old habits. I always used to enjoy reading your posts and your insight - it helped me so much in early sobriety last year. I want to sincerely thank you for that.
I remember one of your posts where you were going to a concert and spoke of how it felt to enjoy the simple pleasure of a ferry ride sober. It probably seems like an insignificant thing, but it stuck with me, and I thought - I want to feel that. To be grateful for simple things because I am sober.
I have no doubt you are a strong, wise and wonderful woman. Good on you for nipping the illusion in the bud and trying to get back on track. I'm sure you've helped many people here in ways you will never realise.
Sorry you aren't back in the best of circumstances, but I hope you find support here again to reclaim everything you deserve to have, lovely lady. Be well.xx
I remember one of your posts where you were going to a concert and spoke of how it felt to enjoy the simple pleasure of a ferry ride sober. It probably seems like an insignificant thing, but it stuck with me, and I thought - I want to feel that. To be grateful for simple things because I am sober.
I have no doubt you are a strong, wise and wonderful woman. Good on you for nipping the illusion in the bud and trying to get back on track. I'm sure you've helped many people here in ways you will never realise.
Sorry you aren't back in the best of circumstances, but I hope you find support here again to reclaim everything you deserve to have, lovely lady. Be well.xx
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: Australia
Posts: 11,351
Nuudawn
**************{hugzzzz}}}}}}}}
It's so lovely to see you back sober sister , Albeit Patsyless
I have thought of you often , only the other day as a matter of fact and hey presto! Here you are .
Can't wait for your clever witty input , one of the the most eloquently spoken smartest chicks around.
Welcome home sis ,
Xxx much love
**************{hugzzzz}}}}}}}}It's so lovely to see you back sober sister , Albeit Patsyless
I have thought of you often , only the other day as a matter of fact and hey presto! Here you are .
Can't wait for your clever witty input , one of the the most eloquently spoken smartest chicks around.
Welcome home sis ,
Xxx much love
Member
Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Southern U.S.
Posts: 1,030
Nuudawn, along with many others, I am so glad to see you back. Your posts were among the ones that spoke so strongly to me in the early days. You have a beautiful gift of expression and I look forward to hearing your perspectives.
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Canada
Posts: 4,580
I am truly amazed by the number of you who have reached out to say something I have said has been worthwhile for them..that has helped. I'm a little gobsmacked...
Went to see "The Other Woman" with a lifelong gal pal tonight. It was good to laugh. When I walked to my truck in what felt like early summer night air..couldn't help but smile...
Damn straight Croissant...back to observing and appreciating simple things...things I've missed and just simply don't take the time to enjoy when my moments of leisure are dulled by wine or blinder focused 'in anticipation of" the moment when.
Closing in on Day 2. Thanks guys...your words and kindness are helping to firm my resolve for sobriety in each passing moment. I was teetering on a fence yesterday full of more doubt than resolve...
But the wind has changed.
Went to see "The Other Woman" with a lifelong gal pal tonight. It was good to laugh. When I walked to my truck in what felt like early summer night air..couldn't help but smile...
Damn straight Croissant...back to observing and appreciating simple things...things I've missed and just simply don't take the time to enjoy when my moments of leisure are dulled by wine or blinder focused 'in anticipation of" the moment when.
Closing in on Day 2. Thanks guys...your words and kindness are helping to firm my resolve for sobriety in each passing moment. I was teetering on a fence yesterday full of more doubt than resolve...
But the wind has changed.
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