him

here i go again.. what is different this time? as ive read over and over that you trully know when you are ready when you trully surrender and know you are powerless over this. i finally surrendered. after years of making excuses and broken promises to loved ones and people that i have hurt along the way. Losing a friend of 30+ years late last year would make someone change automatically and just quit... i figured i could just do this on my own and id be ok. here i am, but this time i guess alot of broken promises, alot of hurtfull things said throughout the years took a toll on someone i trully love and will miss. no one to blame but me, and this i finally see. we were planning on getting married .. i know at this poitn she is alot better off without me and the crap i put her through.. ive read alot of stories on here about people in this same situtation.. i want to tell her its for real this time.. me stopping . but ive done this over and over ..everyone stopped believing.. sorry for rambling on.. just needed to vent. ill be on here more and going to meetings and trying my hardest for me and my future.

KateL

Good for you. That's great to hear xxxx

Opivotal

I think we've all made promises and said things while drinking that take there toll on our loved ones. The apologies didn't work for me anymore, I had to remain sober and after a while people began to believe in me again.

Good for you on 6 days sober him... keep up the great work!

him

thank you guys.. taking it one day at a time.. hopefully one day ill be able to regain alot of people's trust in me.