alwayssober1

Hi everyone, you know me posting under the username alwaysdrinkin, I'm now alwayssober1 lol...a few days ago I almost cracked, felt like s**t, fed up feeling rubbish,depressed, deleted my account, went to the shop, brought some beer, poured a pint of beer in a glass....BUT...I couldn't drink it! Poured the entire 8 cans of beer down the sink...lol!

I couldn't drink it because I thought about the hell I have gone through, the withdrawal etc, it would have all been a wasted effort, I am very happy to say I am 54 days sober! I'm so glad I didn't drink, here's to sticking around, I so grateful for this place!

Hevyn

Great job on your 54 days. I'm glad you dumped it out. It feels so good to make it through those challenges.

Dee74

I like the name change

Glad you're hanging in there but that must have been tough - have you considered other support besides SR?

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Raider

Great job!!!!!!

least

Congrats on 54 days sober and also for not drinking that beer. And I like your new name.

SeaScape

A much better name - yay! Awesome for you. It sounds like you are really sick and tired of it all. I just can't go through the vicious cycles of drinking and drying out.

silentrun

Great job dumping it out. Congratulations on 54.

alwayssober1

Hi dee, it was tough, but me being me I would of drank for a few days, feel even worse, then start over again on day 1 full of regret, I haven't thought about any other support, but I feel stronger now, if its there in front of me and still didn't drink I find that a very good sign!

54 days to me feels like years, I can't go back!

hayley86

Congrats on 54 days!

Notimetoloose

Yee Haw, it's too kewl, seriously love it....it made my day reading your post.
Love the new name...you are an inspiration.

KateL

That's great xxxx

Mountainmanbob

I relate
this last time around sobering up
was a living hell for me
and it lasted for many months

congratulations on your 54 days -- a nice amount of sober time

Mountainman

newhope01

Very inspirational post. Congratulations on your 54 days!

pattiopatti

Thank you for your post..This is not the first time your writings have helped me. Today has been an all around lousy stressful day and it was good to have a little inspiration.

alwayssober1

Thanks for all of your encouragement everyone!

The great thing about being sober is each passing day is progress...i am grateful i am not back in that dark, depressing, destructive life i lived for so long....i wasted a decade drinking...heres to change!

MamaGoat

Wonderful post! I am happy for you! Well done!!

matt4x4

I would consider that a relapse, 100%. Glad you didnt drink that poison and end up in a federal bed and breakfast with your own uniform. I would however start back at step 1, since you didnt really understand it to begin with.

SoberLeigh

Congratulations on 54 Sober Days, AlwaysSober. I hope that you were taunting any AVs that were hanging around while you were dumping those cans of beer.

alwayssober1

Step 1? I have no idea what that involves? I don't go to meetings or on any structured program, I'll have to look into it before I even understand what your saying.

tootsl1

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Originally Posted by AlwaysSober1
Hi everyone, you know me posting under the username alwaysdrinkin, I'm now alwayssober1 lol...a few days ago I almost cracked, felt like s**t, fed up feeling rubbish,depressed, deleted my account, went to the shop, brought some beer, poured a pint of beer in a glass....BUT...I couldn't drink it! Poured the entire 8 cans of beer down the sink...lol!

I couldn't drink it because I thought about the hell I have gone through, the withdrawal etc, it would have all been a wasted effort, I am very happy to say I am 54 days sober! I'm so glad I didn't drink, here's to sticking around, I so grateful for this place!
I would consider that a relapse, 100%. Glad you didnt drink that poison and end up in a federal bed and breakfast with your own uniform. I would however start back at step 1, since you didnt really understand it to begin with.
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Hi ev