Slippery slope is getting too fast (Dear wife, you told me so)
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Slippery slope is getting too fast (Dear wife, you told me so)
My letter to you, my wife, on September 29th 2013… Prior to this day I have thought a lot about my drinking and how it had progressed in a bad way since I started back a few months ago, after 2-1/2 years of sobriety, I wish I had recorded the date… in that new beginning I thought it was the blessing I was looking for after the hell I was going through with work related issues, people, things etc… even lack of sex on my part of initiation.
I was right, it was the thing that was missing, and drinking made everything OK, all was perfect, for a few weeks it seemed…
It didn’t change me all that much, or did it? I’m still me, but if I am honest I like the non-alcohol me better than the alcohol me, I hate thinking about it all the time, it’s like I am obsessed about it.
It seems the alcoholic brain takes over when it thinks I need a drink, no matter what the conversation I had with it this morning was, but after I get plowed I can finally scream ‘Help!’ “HELP!”
I swear I will quit tomorrow, tomorrow I will do better, and tomorrow will be different, ok, just one more time, please understand, I will quit tomorrow, please, understand about tonight, I will quit tomorrow, I will quit tomorrow! Get off my back!!!
Even though I am still sliding…
Thank you for supporting me though my trials and errors, and caring enough to get my attention,
I was right, it was the thing that was missing, and drinking made everything OK, all was perfect, for a few weeks it seemed…
It didn’t change me all that much, or did it? I’m still me, but if I am honest I like the non-alcohol me better than the alcohol me, I hate thinking about it all the time, it’s like I am obsessed about it.
It seems the alcoholic brain takes over when it thinks I need a drink, no matter what the conversation I had with it this morning was, but after I get plowed I can finally scream ‘Help!’ “HELP!”
I swear I will quit tomorrow, tomorrow I will do better, and tomorrow will be different, ok, just one more time, please understand, I will quit tomorrow, please, understand about tonight, I will quit tomorrow, I will quit tomorrow! Get off my back!!!
Even though I am still sliding…
Thank you for supporting me though my trials and errors, and caring enough to get my attention,
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just one more.....
I will also quit tomorrow
I will only drink 3 times this week
I will drink less tonight
Im starting my new medication tomorrow
im going to see the doctor tomorrow
I need to wean down, I cant just stop
I could write 100 other things about not stopping today.... until I stopped.
Im hearing ya
I will also quit tomorrow
I will only drink 3 times this week
I will drink less tonight
Im starting my new medication tomorrow
im going to see the doctor tomorrow
I need to wean down, I cant just stop
I could write 100 other things about not stopping today.... until I stopped.
Im hearing ya
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