9am, On The Wine
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Yes I cant wait to find that special someone to share my horrific stories of alcohol depravity with, haha 
As you can see I am in a strangely euphoric mood today. This will last until about..Tuesday I reckon.
As you can see I am in a strangely euphoric mood today. This will last until about..Tuesday I reckon.
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Seriously I've had 2 of the busiest and most chaotic days at work ever, every want to kill your colleagues? Almighty temptation to get smashed as I left work, I thought about it, and thought about how bad I will feel in the morning, and how much I would hate myself, so I just ignored it and got busy with other things. Tough tho. Day 6 tomorrow, headaches going away being replaced by confusion and clumsiness.
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Good for you on making it through. Remember, one day at a time!
The clumsiness. I had that. I dropped more stuff in my first month sober than I dropped in a year. I also kept forgetting to put the caps on stuff correctly. I put it on but forgot to snap it shut or actually turn it.
The clumsiness. I had that. I dropped more stuff in my first month sober than I dropped in a year. I also kept forgetting to put the caps on stuff correctly. I put it on but forgot to snap it shut or actually turn it.
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I sat down to have some food earlier and instead of a knife and fork, I had a fork in each hand. I knew something was wrong but I couldn't figure out what it was..
I also keep going to do things like get some milk from the fridge and In the 1.5 seconds it takes to get there I've got distracted and start eating tomatoes or something and then walk away only to go "****! Need milk!" its like having alzheimers.
I also keep going to do things like get some milk from the fridge and In the 1.5 seconds it takes to get there I've got distracted and start eating tomatoes or something and then walk away only to go "****! Need milk!" its like having alzheimers.
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Yes I was in this trap for many years. I started drinking everyday even if I didn't feel like drinking - I did it because that's what I did everyday.
It was as if I feared that something who happen to me if I skipped a day on booze.
Now at 46 days sober I see how stupid that was.
It was as if I feared that something who happen to me if I skipped a day on booze.
Now at 46 days sober I see how stupid that was.
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Doniker I know what you mean, having a day off work was just an excuse to sit in my pants and neck lager. Im only 6 days sober and I had an overwhelming urge to drink today that made me salivate and stopped me in my tracks at work. Ive got a lot going on in my life at the moment, new job coming up, accountants, lots going on with the family etc and I felt like blotting it all out in my usual way, it was the biggest craving ive had so far. Luckily im so busy at the moment that it was easy to distract myself, but i fear for the days (like this weekend) when I have not much to do but worry.
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Congrats on day 7! Good for you.
I used to worry but many of my worries were of my own making. I would start with something small and my mind can and will twist it into a sh*t storm in record time. Before I knew it I was drinking over something that either was not even close to the real problem or was not a problem at all.
I used to worry but many of my worries were of my own making. I would start with something small and my mind can and will twist it into a sh*t storm in record time. Before I knew it I was drinking over something that either was not even close to the real problem or was not a problem at all.
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Yep this is a good description of the early days of my recovery. And how I acted and felt. Just stay at home and indulge on a day off. I would book a long weekend off work and just do the same thing. Nothing. Ignore doing anything outside..... apart from re-stocking supplies.... ..........
Then the awakening.
It is hard, hard, hard but its worth it and slowly. slowly, slowly things get better.
Then the awakening.
It is hard, hard, hard but its worth it and slowly. slowly, slowly things get better.
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