trailrunrbyday

I CANNOT believe I tricked myself into thinking I could drink less/casually.

It is not possible. I have proven it and here I am starting all over again. My husband is by my side. A miracle.

I am so very thankful for his love. I will be needing you guys again.

Sasha4

Welcome back!

We have all done it, me included.
There is no shame.
The only shame would be to stop trying.

xxxx

raja12

Amen to that! Welcome back.

least

Forgive yourself, learn from it, and move on again. I tricked myself too many times but finally 'got it'. You will too, just don't give up.

tootsl1

I tried countless times, and each time I succumbed, I enjoyed it less and loathed myself more. Eventually I woke up to the fact I had to stop for my self respect and sanity. That meant accepting categorically that I can and will never drink again

Knowing that makes it easier this time to keep following the right path

Fandy

Hi trail, welcome back, stick with us and connect every day, it helps....we cannot drink, but we can do so much else to help others.....while helping ourselves.

GoodFortune

I have been there soooo many times. The feeling of waking up and realizing that last night went to **** is awfull so I feel your pain. Try and take the emotions you feel now and use them towards making a change. This isn`t working for you, but something else will. Be on the forum a lot, talk to your doctor about the problem and feel good about taking responsibility for your addiction.

Wishing you all the best and remember that we have all been there!

trailrunrbyday

Thank you for caring and for the replies. If you scroll to my thread "two weeks sober...." You will find my inspiration to try again. I lost my way but I WILL do this!!!

Hevyn

Hi trailrunr. Like the others, I have experience with this. I was determined that willpower alone could save me from destroying my life. No....no it can't. It was so hard to acknowledge that I could never have a drop, but once I stopped feeling sorry for myself I began to face reality and heal. That was 5 yrs. 3 mos. ago (after drinking 30 yrs.). So you see - it can be done! Proud of you for coming back for another try - this time you're going to do it.

Opivotal

Good for you trailrunrbyday! You can do this.

soberclover

Ahhhhh...we've all been where you have visited. I, too, grew tired of the mental and physical storm that would follow trying to control my drinking. Do what you need to do to find that deep acceptance that you cannot drink alcohol again.

paul99

Glad to see you back. Fully accepting that I can't drink like a normal person was a huge stepping stone in my recovery. Accepting and fully conceding this fact was where I started my journey.

theHomerSimpson

If you are struggling with alcohol, try to let this reply stick, its 'THE" answer for most of us! I did it too, and I am over 2 months now. Thank you Paul99.

Zebra1275

I didn't have any problem quitting drinking.

I did it hundreds of times.

Staying stopped was a problem though. The combination of SR and AA has helped me to stay sober. What are you going to do different this time?