Justfor1

Well SR friends after 15 months of having the awful alcohol machine device on my car, I have got the approval to remove it!! It was suppose to be 18 months but they said it's okay to remove now & I can get my full drivers license. This is after 3 DUI's & a few fender benders driving intoxicated. Of course, now the true test will begin. All this is because of hard work & jumping through "the hoops" of the system. Of course, I have to give credit to God, AA, friends & SR.

Hevyn

Fantastic news! I know you feel great. Congratulations

Justfor1

I feel good yet exhausted over the process I went through. People do not realize the extent that some states make you go to prove your not a danger. The truth is I don't if I will drive drunk or not. When I pick up a drink all bets and logic dissolve. It's like I'm auto pilot to self destruction. The consequences of drinking & drugging never seemed to scare me. When I pick up I do not care about anyone or anything.

Xune

You should visit a Doctor and run this by her.

Perhaps you can gain some insight into why you are the way you are and then learn how to live in such a way, that you do not pose a risk to the innocents around you.

Fernaceman

Great post. Always nice to hear when hard work and dedication pay off.

Justfor1

[QUOTE=Xune;3740754]You should visit a Doctor and run this by her.

But that is the truth. I am a real alcoholic. That is why I stay sober. That is what addiction is, continued use despite consequences. I deserve to legally drive today & do not care what anyone has to say about it. I have been to jail for extended periods & would be "scared straight" for a few months but then be right back at it. I was a dedicated alcoholic & drug addict. It was like my full time job. Sadly, it was the only job I could do.

robgt350

congrats you made it. wasn't easier to do your time and not file lawsuits against your punishment?

hamabi

"I am a real alcoholic. That is why I stay sober. That is what addiction is, continued use despite consequences."

A guy once put it as succinctly as I've ever heard it said..."I drank because I'm an alcoholic and I stay sober because I'm an alcoholic."

tomsteve

this:
"The truth is I don't if I will drive drunk or not. When I pick up a drink all bets and logic dissolve. It's like I'm auto pilot to self destruction. The consequences of drinking & drugging never seemed to scare me. When I pick up I do not care about anyone or anything."
is why they do this:

"the extent that some states make you go to prove your not a danger. The truth is I don't if I will drive drunk or not."

keep goin to meetings, practice the principles, and carry the message one day at a time.

Justfor1

You must of followed my last post. My opinion that the machine is dangerous still remains. I know the argument is it's better than me drinking/driving. It serves no purpose other than punishing the drunk. I still could of drove "high as a kite" and not set off the horrible device. To tell everyone the truth, the judge actually thanked me for my honesty & could understand my hardship with the DUI. He probably realizes what I do, that a small % of DUI offender will never stop drinking/driving. No license? no insurance? No problem, they say & off they drive. I did the right thing & did the court process so I should be proud.

Texasblind

You SHOULD be proud. I still have a year left on mine, and I've learned to love the little "beep" every so often. It reminds me that I am doing the right thing. I prefer to see it not so much as "punishment" but as intense driver's ed style re-training. I can't get in the car even buzzed, I just can't. I consider myself lucky every day I never hit anyone, let alone killed anyone.

Yeah, it's money every month I could save or buy guitars with, but it's an investment in clearing the wreckage of my past, so I can drive with an unrestricted license again.

Good for you!!

TheEnd

Nice to see good things happening to you!!

Justfor1

Yes, for a change I suppose. Probably because I have been sober for 18 months minus a day.

Leadfoot

If I drink, I will drive drunk. That's an absolute fact. There's an easy way to avoid the problem.

1. Instead of going to meetings, I belong to a group.

2. Instead of reading a book, I do what the book says.

Somewhere along the line my choice has been returned to me where once I had no choice as to whether I drink or not. So if you see me with a DUI you can be assured that I followed one line in the book to a "T".

Pg 62 Big Book 1st Edition
"So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making". That line is the one truth out of the book that I can take regardless of what unfolds in my life.

Stang

Outstanding!
You're not alone! That's me to a tee.

Dee74

Best wishes and happy sober motoring J41

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Justfor1

[QUOTE=Dee74;3740962]Best wishes and happy sober motoring J41

Thank you Dee. I look at the benefits that sobriety brings me in order to stay sober each day.

Elisabeth888

I can drive now and have one in my car. So far, I haven't had any problems, other than not blowing hard enough in there and getting an "abort" message. I just don't ever want to be stranded somewhere and actually be sober.

For me, it is a good reminder. I drank in my car ALL THE TIME because I couldn't around my husband. So I was driving a death machine.

I am so glad I am sober.

Justfor1

[QUOTE=Elisabeth888;3741079]I can drive now and have one in my car. So far, I haven't had any problems, other than not blowing hard enough in there and getting an "abort" message. I just don't ever want to be stranded somewhere and actually be sober.

Glad to see you are driving. The problem I had wasn't so much blowing before I started the auto but while I was driving.