A silver lining to the cloud of alcoholism?
A silver lining to the cloud of alcoholism?
I've noticed a gradual change in my recovery as follows;
Once I was far enough into my sober time I was able to realize some of the mid to longer term benefits of being sober such as clearer thought, a more even emotional temperament, better short term memory and the ability to look at my life choices with less bias. During this time period I found myself imagining where I might be in my life had I never been touched by alcoholism.
This brought on guilt over how I could have been a better husband, father, brother, son and person. I didn't dwell on it all the time and I did temper the guilt with the joy of recovery and thoughts like look forward, water under the bridge, be happy that you are sober etc. which is all valid true and helpful.
Recently the thought crossed my mind that perhaps I should also realize that the experiences of alcoholism and recovery have in some ways made me a better husband, father, brother, son and person nowthan I would have been without these experiences.
I am not suggesting that if I had my life to do over that I'd choose the alcohol path but I am saying that there is [I]some[I] good that has come from the challenge of it.
I subscribe to the theory that getting past challenges/troubles/failures makes us stronger and better...or in other words, builds our character in a positive way. I cannot think of any greater challenge/trouble/failure in my life than alcoholism.
Does this make sense to others based on your experience?
Thanks, and as frame of reference I'm over 4 years sober.
Once I was far enough into my sober time I was able to realize some of the mid to longer term benefits of being sober such as clearer thought, a more even emotional temperament, better short term memory and the ability to look at my life choices with less bias. During this time period I found myself imagining where I might be in my life had I never been touched by alcoholism.
This brought on guilt over how I could have been a better husband, father, brother, son and person. I didn't dwell on it all the time and I did temper the guilt with the joy of recovery and thoughts like look forward, water under the bridge, be happy that you are sober etc. which is all valid true and helpful.
Recently the thought crossed my mind that perhaps I should also realize that the experiences of alcoholism and recovery have in some ways made me a better husband, father, brother, son and person nowthan I would have been without these experiences.
I am not suggesting that if I had my life to do over that I'd choose the alcohol path but I am saying that there is [I]some[I] good that has come from the challenge of it.
I subscribe to the theory that getting past challenges/troubles/failures makes us stronger and better...or in other words, builds our character in a positive way. I cannot think of any greater challenge/trouble/failure in my life than alcoholism.
Does this make sense to others based on your experience?
Thanks, and as frame of reference I'm over 4 years sober.
Yes, it makes sense to me. I subscribe to the theory that our experiences, both good and bad, shape us into the individuals we are today. I also think recovering from alcoholism, makes me more empathetic towards those struggling with addiction.....but not necessarily more patient, as I tire of people unwilling to do the work. I totally agree about the benefits to short term memory
Makes sense to me too. Not that I"d choose to be an alcoholic in my next life, but by learning from it I've become a better person all round. Congrats on your sober time. I'm coming up on three years myself.
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Thanks for bringing this up...Congratulations on your sober years
When I first started my AA program and heard members say
"I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic" I thought they were nuts....
I stayed around and my life slowly began to shift into sober
actions and thinking.
Grateful... to me.... meeans positive daily action..
When I first started my AA program and heard members say
"I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic" I thought they were nuts....
I stayed around and my life slowly began to shift into sober
actions and thinking.
Grateful... to me.... meeans positive daily action..
I subscribe to the theory that getting past challenges/troubles/failures makes us stronger and better...or in other words, builds our character in a positive way. I cannot think of any greater challenge/trouble/failure in my life than alcoholism.
Does this make sense to others based on your experience?
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Congrats on being sober over 4 years!
Thanks for the great reaction. I wasn't sure that people would accept the thought that some good could come from having the alcoholic experience. I feel even better now.
Sugarbear, part of how I've stayed sober is that I was scared into a short period of not drinking and during that time I thought very hard about if I wanted to quit for good or not and if so, who was I really doing it for. I knew I couldn't quit unless I was doing it for me. Didn't have to be exclusively me, but I had to be main reason. Once I came to that conclusion I had a foundation to build on. I did some posts while I was in that stage if you care to look them up.
Pondlady, I can understand your comment about being more empathetic towards those struggling with addiction.....but not necessarily more patient. I think part of it is because I know there is little that can be done for someone that doesn't want it enough to be willing to suffer through the work.
Least, very happy for you getting up on 3 years. I always admired you during my first year here because, although you were struggling you were never afraid to stick around and talk about it. Plus, of course, you're a fellow dog lover!
Carol, thanks for thanking me for bringing this up. It means a lot.
"grateful recovering alcoholic""...gotta love that
Boleo *and sometimes it does it real slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwly
Blondie, it makes me very happy to see you say that you believe my post will help you. I found that reading posts from people from all stages of recovery was very helpful. Not all the posts help of course, you have to pick and choose what helps and not let any posts that don't help get in your way.
Sugarbear, part of how I've stayed sober is that I was scared into a short period of not drinking and during that time I thought very hard about if I wanted to quit for good or not and if so, who was I really doing it for. I knew I couldn't quit unless I was doing it for me. Didn't have to be exclusively me, but I had to be main reason. Once I came to that conclusion I had a foundation to build on. I did some posts while I was in that stage if you care to look them up.
Pondlady, I can understand your comment about being more empathetic towards those struggling with addiction.....but not necessarily more patient. I think part of it is because I know there is little that can be done for someone that doesn't want it enough to be willing to suffer through the work.
Least, very happy for you getting up on 3 years. I always admired you during my first year here because, although you were struggling you were never afraid to stick around and talk about it. Plus, of course, you're a fellow dog lover!
Carol, thanks for thanking me for bringing this up. It means a lot.
"grateful recovering alcoholic""...gotta love that
Boleo *and sometimes it does it real slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwly
Blondie, it makes me very happy to see you say that you believe my post will help you. I found that reading posts from people from all stages of recovery was very helpful. Not all the posts help of course, you have to pick and choose what helps and not let any posts that don't help get in your way.
I hear what you're saying. I have just been reading today's Daily Reflection and it speaks about the transformative power of prayer, meditation and self-examination. I don't think I would have considered those things seriously if I had not been pressed into thinking about them as a result of alcoholism and recovery. Not to say they are a magic trick for making me a better person but they could be part of a process of doing so, if I use them wisely and honestly.
Totally relate to what you are saying. In the long run, I am not only striving to be a better person, I'm definitely a happier person. I do attribute that to doing the steps of AA. I am so much more tolerant, grateful, and optimistic than I was before. Maybe I had to walk through hell to get to the other side.
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Thank you for posting about the benefits of quitting. It's very easy to get overwhelmed and distracted by glorifying the "good ol' days" I'm glad someone posted a reminder of how much better the good NEW days can be. I'm 15 days so far and have already noticed big changes in my mood. I like waking up and not being sick and I like not wasting my days hungover or sad. Onward!
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I subscribe to the theory that getting past challenges/troubles/failures makes us stronger and better...or in other words, builds our character in a positive way. I cannot think of any greater challenge/trouble/failure in my life than alcoholism.
Does this make sense to others based on your experience?
Does this make sense to others based on your experience?
Thank you for posting about the benefits of quitting. It's very easy to get overwhelmed and distracted by glorifying the "good ol' days" I'm glad someone posted a reminder of how much better the good NEW days can be. I'm 15 days so far and have already noticed big changes in my mood. I like waking up and not being sick and I like not wasting my days hungover or sad. Onward!
Glad you're doing well wanderlust, I'm sure you know there will be tough days too but is is so so worth making it through those days.
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