My mind still brings me to the brink but I am learning to step back
My mind still brings me to the brink but I am learning to step back
Some days several in a row I will get massive Alcoholic OCD. It happened The last three days, this worries me at times but something has definitely changed. I have acquired the ability to walk away from it. I was never able before but I felt perilously close the last few days and still found the strength to say no.
All these emotions just well up within me. Whether it be guilt of failure if I give in or a positive vision of sober things I like that will be ruined if I drink. In the past, these safeguards I tried to put in place to help me stay sober never worked. I always eventually gave in but maybe I just am reaching a point finally where somewhere deep inside I have said enough is enough.
I was actually a little shocked at myself today how so matter of fact I just left the compulsion hanging there to die. It was a strange yet wonderful feeling.
I have lived to see another sober day, one by one. With each success I grow stronger and I don't want to give it away and take a step back.
Carry on, carry on.
To another great sober day to you all.
All these emotions just well up within me. Whether it be guilt of failure if I give in or a positive vision of sober things I like that will be ruined if I drink. In the past, these safeguards I tried to put in place to help me stay sober never worked. I always eventually gave in but maybe I just am reaching a point finally where somewhere deep inside I have said enough is enough.
I was actually a little shocked at myself today how so matter of fact I just left the compulsion hanging there to die. It was a strange yet wonderful feeling.
I have lived to see another sober day, one by one. With each success I grow stronger and I don't want to give it away and take a step back.
Carry on, carry on.
To another great sober day to you all.
I was actually a little shocked at myself today how so matter of fact I just left the compulsion hanging there to die. It was a strange yet wonderful feeling.
Bye Now!
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