Got Thrown Under the Bus At My Meeting Tonight
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Join Date: Jan 2012
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Got Thrown Under the Bus At My Meeting Tonight
So tonight I went to my regular 7:00 womens meeting. I'm still new in the program, about 2 months in now and so far I haven't really done any of the services or anything because I still feel too nervous.
However I do go in early and help set up the chairs and such, so tonight I went in and started putting out chairs and this woman tosses me a book and says "here you get to chair tonight!" And I instantly reverted to my childish anxiety and nervousness, and I politely declined at first. Then she says "no, no, I've seen you coming around and I can tell you're serious about this program and I've loved watching you progress, you can do this!"
SO.......I DID IT! AND I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! I was totally nervous at first but then I calmed down and when it came time for me to open up the sharing I completely surprised myself but talking calmly and without rambling too much. Everyone told me I did an awesome job.
I'm so happy right now.
However I do go in early and help set up the chairs and such, so tonight I went in and started putting out chairs and this woman tosses me a book and says "here you get to chair tonight!" And I instantly reverted to my childish anxiety and nervousness, and I politely declined at first. Then she says "no, no, I've seen you coming around and I can tell you're serious about this program and I've loved watching you progress, you can do this!"
SO.......I DID IT! AND I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! I was totally nervous at first but then I calmed down and when it came time for me to open up the sharing I completely surprised myself but talking calmly and without rambling too much. Everyone told me I did an awesome job.
I'm so happy right now.
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Flyer, I would've been terrified - I think it's amazing that you accepted the challenge. I know any time I've made myself go outside my comfort zone it's ended up benefiting me. Great job!
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Originally Posted by FlyerFan 
Then she says "no, no, I've seen you coming around and I can tell you're serious about this program and I've loved watching you progress, you can do this!"
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It's great that it happened on the spot like that. Just think, if you would have had a weeks notice, all the extra "worry and freak out time" you might have invested in anticipation. Awesome job! Good lesson tho in how most of our worries are unfounded.
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It's like....all those stupid little fears we learn about when we quit drinking, why am i afraid of speaking in front of a group? why can't I calm myself down? This time I didn't have a choice so I just rolled with it. lol.
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