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You see TU, one thing I do know about myself is I am a terrible "reader". Its not "buying the book" or lack there of. At this point, its not even a lack of commitment to my sobriety. I simply find it easier to read online. I read thread after thread last night on here, read some of the articles and links you sent me. I'm not avoiding purchasing the literature, I'm just accessing it in a way that better suits me. At least for now. Dont take this as procrastination for recovery. More as, just not the way I wish to obtain the info.
I've gotten more outta of reading your posts, and others, and looking at the material you sent me in the past 24 hours than I have ever seen in my lifetime regarding this stuff. I hope you understand.
I've gotten more outta of reading your posts, and others, and looking at the material you sent me in the past 24 hours than I have ever seen in my lifetime regarding this stuff. I hope you understand.
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Originally Posted by aggieland 
I've gotten more outta of reading your posts, and others, and looking at the material you sent me in the past 24 hours than I have ever seen in my lifetime regarding this stuff. I hope you understand.
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aggieland - you asked about obsessing over "not drinking".
For me, my thinking was definitely dominated by "not drinking" thoughts for the first couple of months. At least 100X a day. While the action of "not drinking" was not terribly hard (ie: I had enough control to not pick up a drink), my mind was thinking about not drinking constantly.
Also, I had a feeling of "loss". I missed drinking. Both the getting high part and what I perceived as relaxation and socialization.
My therapist told me that both of these feelings were completely normal and definitely part of the pattern. This was very comforting to me.
I dealt with this by reading SR, writing down and adding to my honest pro/con list, and reading books (memoires). You've said that you're not a big book reader, but a couple of them were very helpful for me (best: "drinking. a love story" by Knapp)
Keep it up. Your family needs you at 100%.
For me, my thinking was definitely dominated by "not drinking" thoughts for the first couple of months. At least 100X a day. While the action of "not drinking" was not terribly hard (ie: I had enough control to not pick up a drink), my mind was thinking about not drinking constantly.
Also, I had a feeling of "loss". I missed drinking. Both the getting high part and what I perceived as relaxation and socialization.
My therapist told me that both of these feelings were completely normal and definitely part of the pattern. This was very comforting to me.
I dealt with this by reading SR, writing down and adding to my honest pro/con list, and reading books (memoires). You've said that you're not a big book reader, but a couple of them were very helpful for me (best: "drinking. a love story" by Knapp)
Keep it up. Your family needs you at 100%.
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