shantra32

I have a long weekend as I have tomorrow off. When I was working today, out of nowhere, a voice in my mind said " You could drink tonight and no one would know because Donnie ( my boyfriend) won't be here until Saturday." ( I live alone ) I wasn't even thinking about drinking and the voice just popped into my head........it seems my alcoholic mind is still at work even when I am not aware of it. But instead I picked up nacho fixins and a movie......because even though no one would know that I drank, I would know that I drank. Day 69.......

suki44883

I would know that I drank.

And that's what it's all about.

Jabbadabutt

I often wonder where I would be if I did live alone.........

I shudder to think, and that is enough to get me through to the next day.

ste

You did it right, respond, instead of react. Feels good!

Rift

I live alone too. The temptation to drink when alone is great, no doubt about it. Especially if you have nothing in particular to do that night or the next day. You get bored/lonely and yes those alkie thoughts start creeping in....should I go to the store and grab an 18 pack? Should i go to the store and pick up some liquor?

It has been hard for me too living alone. Most of the time the thing I think about is the day after my drinking. That hangover/miserable feeling. Waste a whole day in bed. It can be pretty crazy.

Boleo

I used to think that there were 26 character defects that an alcoholic like me needs to worry about. Now I believe that the are only three;

1. Delusional Thinking
2. Delusional Thinking
3. Delusional Thinking

loveon2legs

Good goin' girl!!!!

Anna

Yes! Recognizing that the alcoholic voice is out to get you is a big step forward!

shantra32

Perhaps I should rephrase what I said....I wasn't consciously aware that I was thinking about it because I was distracted by my work.....It seemed like it popped out of nowhere but obviously it had to be in my mind somewhere.....I get that.