day 63
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day 63
Well folks, just thought id pop in and let you know im now on day 63 of being sober. Its a great feeling and my confidence and self esteem is back. My bodybuilding has improved dramatically and my life situation has changed for the best. Ive gradually become less withdrawn and im starting to feel at ease with myself. Not everything is perfect but most of the time its ok. Dont get me wrong, the urge still comes and goes and sometimes try to trick myself into having just a beer but deep down i know its all bullsh*t, i cant have one and dont even need one...why ruin a good thing. I feel different and im still learning about who i really am and what i really want in life but i do know that "me the drinker " has died, gone forever, felt like a different life i was submerged in, so different its scary. Sometimes when i walk past the off licences and down all the routes i used to walk with my carry out, depressed, lonely, living in a dream like world with no hope or love for myself, i get a strange feeling run through my brain. It really does feel like im walking in someone elses shoes now thinking that its all not real and i will wake up on my bed with my bottle....and it those thoughts that will keep me dry. i cherish every moment in my life now and love everything that loves me back. I dont carry so much hate around now and want to help people who are where i have been. This site has been my anchor, like my secret place to go when times were hard, im so greatful. 
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Originally Posted by foghead 
Well folks, just thought id pop in and let you know im now on day 63 of being sober. Its a great feeling and my confidence and self esteem is back. My bodybuilding has improved dramatically and my life situation has changed for the best. Ive gradually become less withdrawn and im starting to feel at ease with myself. Not everything is perfect but most of the time its ok. Dont get me wrong, the urge still comes and goes and sometimes try to trick myself into having just a beer but deep down i know its all bullsh*t, i cant have one and dont even need one...why ruin a good thing. I feel different and im still learning about who i really am and what i really want in life but i do know that "me the drinker " has died, gone forever, felt like a different life i was submerged in, so different its scary. Sometimes when i walk past the off licences and down all the routes i used to walk with my carry out, depressed, lonely, living in a dream like world with no hope or love for myself, i get a strange feeling run through my brain. It really does feel like im walking in someone elses shoes now thinking that its all not real and i will wake up on my bed with my bottle....and it those thoughts that will keep me dry. i cherish every moment in my life now and love everything that loves me back. I dont carry so much hate around now and want to help people who are where i have been. This site has been my anchor, like my secret place to go when times were hard, im so greatful.
Wait until you get even more time under your belt cause it just gets better and better. The difference between 2 months and 5 months is nice.
I am just shy of 6 months!
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