Facing Reality
Its_me_jen
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
Posts: 8,547
Facing Reality
Reality
C and are not going to make it. I'm going to start looking for a place of my own. I'm scared to death to be by myself and I don't know how I'll make it.
I'm continually late for work and if I keep it up I will lose my job.
My sleep pattern is completely screwed up. I'm staying up too late and have a horrible time waking up.
I'm gaining weight .... eating like a pig. I guess emotional eating.
I hate my life right now.
I have no friends and I find it so hard to ask for help.
I'm not in a good place right now. I'd like to go get drunk but I won't. I know it will only make things worse. I'm just not happy. I'm sad and depressed and scared and anxious.
C and are not going to make it. I'm going to start looking for a place of my own. I'm scared to death to be by myself and I don't know how I'll make it.
I'm continually late for work and if I keep it up I will lose my job.
My sleep pattern is completely screwed up. I'm staying up too late and have a horrible time waking up.
I'm gaining weight .... eating like a pig. I guess emotional eating.
I hate my life right now.
I have no friends and I find it so hard to ask for help.
I'm not in a good place right now. I'd like to go get drunk but I won't. I know it will only make things worse. I'm just not happy. I'm sad and depressed and scared and anxious.
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Join Date: Dec 2003
Posts: 12,136
I'm glad you went to a meeting, Jen. Reach out to the sober women, if you haven't already, and start building a solid support network.
You have recognized your patterns (eating, staying up late, late for work etc) which is good - but they have been like this for a while, no? I can identify - you and I are alot alike in this way. It takes a lot of discipline to take the right action, so I try to start small. Rather than visit the gym, I walk the dogs. If I want to have an afternoon nap, I make myself get up early evening to do the dishes, clean the litter boxes, etc.
PM me your phone number again, if you like. I deleted it in error when I emptied my PM's. Maybe I'll call you this week and we can chat. Keep reaching out, friend.
You have recognized your patterns (eating, staying up late, late for work etc) which is good - but they have been like this for a while, no? I can identify - you and I are alot alike in this way. It takes a lot of discipline to take the right action, so I try to start small. Rather than visit the gym, I walk the dogs. If I want to have an afternoon nap, I make myself get up early evening to do the dishes, clean the litter boxes, etc.
PM me your phone number again, if you like. I deleted it in error when I emptied my PM's. Maybe I'll call you this week and we can chat. Keep reaching out, friend.
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Join Date: Aug 2004
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Jen...
We all do the isolate thing it is what we are use too and we are human! What Ro Ro said you realize what is going on and your doing something about it so that is powerful! And good recovery!
We are all your friends even if we are not face to face. You are loved by all of us-and we will be here for you sweets.
And yup I agree you are a stronger woman than you are relaizing right now-That strength is there there and it will appear again.
Keep coming back to us and going to meetings
love ya sweets
We all do the isolate thing it is what we are use too and we are human! What Ro Ro said you realize what is going on and your doing something about it so that is powerful! And good recovery!
We are all your friends even if we are not face to face. You are loved by all of us-and we will be here for you sweets.
And yup I agree you are a stronger woman than you are relaizing right now-That strength is there there and it will appear again.
Keep coming back to us and going to meetings
love ya sweets
Its_me_jen
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
Posts: 8,547
Thanks everyone for the encouraging words.
I do realize I'm on a pity pot but sometimes it's hard to get off. My mind only thinks negative thoughts right now. I don't know how to make them go away.
I ended up going to 2 meetings last night. It was good to get out of the house. All I really want to do is shut myself in my room and be alone. So now I get to be at work and act as if everything is just fine. It's tiring.
I do realize I'm on a pity pot but sometimes it's hard to get off. My mind only thinks negative thoughts right now. I don't know how to make them go away.
I ended up going to 2 meetings last night. It was good to get out of the house. All I really want to do is shut myself in my room and be alone. So now I get to be at work and act as if everything is just fine. It's tiring.
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Join Date: Dec 2003
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Do you have anyone at work you can confide in? I work with a couple of girls who know my story as far as recovery and my life situation - as I do theirs. My life is pretty much an open book - seriously! So if I'm having a crap day I don't have to paste a fake smile on. I don't have to bite anyone's head off either - but I can be myself. Ya know?
Its_me_jen
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
Posts: 8,547
Not really. My boss knows most of it but he's a busy guy. I'm not good at talking to people about stuff I guess. I'm just so used to putting my happy face on. It's just easier.
I don't usually go to a Monday meeting but I will tonight. It gives me an hour not to think so much.
I don't usually go to a Monday meeting but I will tonight. It gives me an hour not to think so much.
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: Western N.Y.
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Hey PD. I realize this might not be the best suggestion to help you, but it's all I got.
The next time you get on that pity pot let go of all the s**t that's bothering
you, and flush it.
OK I'm leaving now.
The next time you get on that pity pot let go of all the s**t that's bothering
you, and flush it.
OK I'm leaving now.
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