Texasblind

I don't remember the past twenty years of my my life.

The only buddies I have are my old high school friends. They accepted me back like no time had ever gone by. I absolutly treasure them for that. Problem is, they want to laugh about stories that happened 15 years ago. They think it's funny as hell; I don't remember any of it. I don't remember the time blah met blah blah and they blah'd at the drive in. I don't remember any of it and it pisses me off.

What to do except be frustrated?

CarolD

As you know.. audiences are not required to do a lot.


A nod...a smile and a chuckle ...Viola! your a good buddy.

Clutch B

Well ... you can't turn back the clock, but you can be grateful that you don't have to be blacked out today. You can have fun with your today -- and remember it tomorrow!

pinetree

I don't remember most of my drinking years and most of my childhood. I started drinking at 13. I came from an alcoholic home and blacked much that happened there. Yeah, it is frustrating at times. I have memory problems now. But that is part of the price we pay. I am sober today and don't need to do any more damage.

barb dwyer

I had a really quippy remark for this thread ...

but I forgot what I was going to say.

SteelReserve

Ananda

for me many of the memories came back...not from the blackouts drunk, but the other memories that someone else eluded to. I not only blacked out the bad times, but the good times as well....no discrimination.

So it's good to get them back, but hard as well. counceling and true understanding friends helped me to get through that remembering.

(HUGS)

Tommyh

it may be good you cannot remember everything Tex....

problemchild

Take a deep breath my friend , then let it go..........


Take care,
John

gravity

I have old friends and family members who reminisce and laugh about the good old drinking days. Apparently, even the blackouts were pretty funny.

If anything, I feel embarrassment. But then, I suppose everyone has stuff in their past that they are not proud of. I try to keep it real – I did have some good times drinking but for the most part, it was horrible. I can’t romanticize my drinking history just because others thought it was all in good fun. Dangerous thinking.

Oh well. Can’t change the past and I am learning to forgive myself. Too many good things in life to let the past drag me down.