Flood

After 27 days of being sober, i've had some awesome days they last about 3-4 days in a row , then that damn anxiety, emptiness, scared, depressed,feeling comes back, so bad i have to take a benzo to calm me down, i hate that feeling i just want to be the old me without being a drunk, and i've felt that feeling, then its crashed with persistant withdrawal crap...anyone else had this same problem? i think i'm gonna go see my doctor again....

Besh Wishes, Flood.....

mike_mass

There's good days and bad days in recovery. You have very little dry time...I have found that in the long run things level out a bit.

Cathy31

I think that without a program of recovery (AA for example or SMART recovery, etc) one is bound to have days like this. However, first things first! Keep it in the day perhaps check out an AA meeting for extra support. Keep going!!

Cathy31
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Flood

Yar i have a home group now and a sponsor!!!!

Cathy31

But that's brilliant!!!!!!!!! That's a real step in the right direction and yes it DEFINITELY does end, you have ahead of you days of PURE joy!! Yes there are down days, but they pass....just hold onto this too shall pass, keep going to your meetings, sharing, start your steps, do some service as soon as possible...and read the Promises of AA (google the promises of AA if you do not have a big book!!! They come true, they really do!!!

WELL DONE on taking ACTION!!!!

Tazman53

The early days were rough as hell for me, life and emotions were like a roller coaster ride!!

Going to meetings and talking on the phone with other recovering alcoholics were a tremendous help for me. What helped me the most was the steps, the steps set me free of the obsession for booze and I became a happy person.

Jfanagle

Flood,

If you became addicted and powerless in 30 days then you have every right to assume that recovery and restoration will take place in that same amount of time. If not then you may want to resign yourself to a slow, but better and better recovery period.

You are doing the right things with a sponsor and a home group. Stay the course and it does get better and better. I think in my case the world began to feel level and "normal" after about 6 months and it was emotionally improved after the first year. I realize that these sound like impossibly long times at this point, however if you are, like myself, in this for the rest of your life, then the rewards are well worth the wait. In reality you won't be waiting, you will be growing and discovering life as it is designed to be.

I wish, particularly at this time of giving gifts, that I could hand you a few years of sobriety and then you would be able to appreciate what all YOUR hard work is going to give you and those around you in the shape of a fantastic life journey.

Hang in there and live each day to its fullest. The sober life is its own reward.

Way to go and best wishes.

Jon

CarolD

The AA Promises are over in the 12 Step Forum
under the Power Post sticky...

You may not be aware of PAWS

Post Acute Withdrawl - Relapse Prevention Specialists - TLC The Living Center

By 3 months of AA recovery....without med's
my mind and body were back in healthy balance.

I do hope you find true for you too Flood!

ANGELINA243

Tazman is right.....talking about the "roller coaster ride". I have 70+ days and today has been great, but yesterday I was unsure, kinda lonely and maybe even slightly depressed. It didn't last very long, but "stinkin' thinking" started to go round and round (like a little hamster wheel in my head) for a short while.

You are not alone--tomorrow, I'm not sure how I will feel> but I know that drinking/and or using won't make anything better, only worse. Hang in there! :puppet

thisisme

It never ends, but no matter what, no matter how bad things get, they are much better sober!
I like the idea of seeing your doctor. They can help.
Take care.