Is anyone else out there feeling as desperarte as I do right now?
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Join Date: May 2007
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Karen, don't do it.
Look at me. I never want to go here again. Ever.
God, I can hardly wait to get started with my recovery. I'm in such a bad way right now, and so afraid if I don't stop..I'll lose every thinking.
Karen, I could never be a bartender, with so much access to booze, That scares me just thinking it.
Look at me. I never want to go here again. Ever.
God, I can hardly wait to get started with my recovery. I'm in such a bad way right now, and so afraid if I don't stop..I'll lose every thinking.
Karen, I could never be a bartender, with so much access to booze, That scares me just thinking it.
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Good, I feel like my body is screaming. Emotionally is the worst part. Anxiety, that's what it feels like.
I just feel so desperate and out of control. How did I get this way. My head is screaming, I can't even sit still. I keep pacing. Very anxious.
bary, stone...god I'm so jealous. I wish I had even a day under my belt.
I just feel so desperate and out of control. How did I get this way. My head is screaming, I can't even sit still. I keep pacing. Very anxious.
bary, stone...god I'm so jealous. I wish I had even a day under my belt.
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Join Date: Sep 2006
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Hey Greata - that was me, the bartender.
yea.
Nothing like putting the weasel right in the henhouse.
but oh yeah - we all had fun.
till we woke up bloody on the floor.
I will share this with both y'all -
this first year of sobriety ...
was better than five years of drinking.
This past year - has been better for me than the last ... fifteen years.
I didn't drink during all those - only the last five.
But the Program of alcoholics Anonymous has changed me for the better.
yea.
Nothing like putting the weasel right in the henhouse.
but oh yeah - we all had fun.
till we woke up bloody on the floor.
I will share this with both y'all -
this first year of sobriety ...
was better than five years of drinking.
This past year - has been better for me than the last ... fifteen years.
I didn't drink during all those - only the last five.
But the Program of alcoholics Anonymous has changed me for the better.
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Hi Greta
I drank alcoholically for 15 years - the last 5 of those every day, mostly all day except when I was sick.
It was only the fact I was so ******* scared of dying that bought me here, and with the support of all these wonderful people, I'm goddamn nearly 6 months sober.
It is possible. You can do this Greta. I believe in you.
and Barbs right, Karen, no man is worth a relapse.
Not even me.
LOL.
hang in there Greta
you too Karen
there's always people here.
D
I drank alcoholically for 15 years - the last 5 of those every day, mostly all day except when I was sick.
It was only the fact I was so ******* scared of dying that bought me here, and with the support of all these wonderful people, I'm goddamn nearly 6 months sober.
It is possible. You can do this Greta. I believe in you.
and Barbs right, Karen, no man is worth a relapse.
Not even me.
LOL.
hang in there Greta
you too Karen
there's always people here.
D
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Well, if you can't do the orange juice -
hit up some water -
cuz I guarantee you're dehydrated.
maybe take a vitamin.
I know it sounds like pouring a buckeet of water into the ocean, but it won't hurt.
I remember shaking so bad I could rattle the dishes in the cabinet. Couldn't walk down the hallway without hitting BOTH walls to get to the bathroom. I didn't know what was going on most of the time. The whole world was just moving way too fast.
Every bone in my body hurt. Like there was glass in there.
But that went away.
The peoploe at Alcoholics Anonymous kept up with me, kept me company, were there for me and are there for me now, just as I am there for them. It's what we do.
hit up some water -
cuz I guarantee you're dehydrated.
maybe take a vitamin.
I know it sounds like pouring a buckeet of water into the ocean, but it won't hurt.
I remember shaking so bad I could rattle the dishes in the cabinet. Couldn't walk down the hallway without hitting BOTH walls to get to the bathroom. I didn't know what was going on most of the time. The whole world was just moving way too fast.
Every bone in my body hurt. Like there was glass in there.
But that went away.
The peoploe at Alcoholics Anonymous kept up with me, kept me company, were there for me and are there for me now, just as I am there for them. It's what we do.
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God, I'm really appreciating the support and stories of revocery.
The worst part is, I have an amzing like. Just built a gorgeous new home, My husband is one of the kindness men in the world. Great job.
What the **** is wrong with me? Why am I doing this? Why am I tryont to **** it all up.
The worst part is, I have an amzing like. Just built a gorgeous new home, My husband is one of the kindness men in the world. Great job.
What the **** is wrong with me? Why am I doing this? Why am I tryont to **** it all up.
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it's probably your body trying to get rid of the poison.
but I think it's also a good case of nerves, too.
you've finally done the right thing, Greta.
You got on the phone and asked for help.
You've got a ride to a meeting tomorrow.
Neither the police, or the mafia are chasing you.
So you're safe now.
And you have found SR.
We're here 24/7.
This is what the right thing feels like.
but I think it's also a good case of nerves, too.
you've finally done the right thing, Greta.
You got on the phone and asked for help.
You've got a ride to a meeting tomorrow.
Neither the police, or the mafia are chasing you.
So you're safe now.
And you have found SR.
We're here 24/7.
This is what the right thing feels like.
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Hi Greta.......
I want to hear how you are today. I am glad Dee, Barb and Stoney were here to talk to you last night. They are awesome.
Please let us know how the meeting went. And don't drink NO MATTER WHAT. And please call your doctor.
I want to hear how you are today. I am glad Dee, Barb and Stoney were here to talk to you last night. They are awesome.
Please let us know how the meeting went. And don't drink NO MATTER WHAT. And please call your doctor.
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Hi Greta, how are you today?
Did you call that number?
what is it for? as im new here i dont know anything about alcoholic stuf
this it work?
i have a hang over today im feeling awful
i admire this people who stop drinking for years
i couldent
i stop for a week then get drunk or typsy
but i know is the pills im taking make me additec to alcohol and make more drunk
if you want to talk send me you email where could be friends
Did you call that number?
what is it for? as im new here i dont know anything about alcoholic stuf
this it work?
i have a hang over today im feeling awful
i admire this people who stop drinking for years
i couldent
i stop for a week then get drunk or typsy
but i know is the pills im taking make me additec to alcohol and make more drunk
if you want to talk send me you email where could be friends
"Grateful to be Sober."
Join Date: Sep 2007
Posts: 90
i do!
hey there, sorry to hear your down, i know how it feels though, i'm feeling the lowest i have in my life - at 20 the prospect of never drinking agin is terrifying, ive justed startd uni in a new city and im living in student halls with drink everywhere i turn. Desperate certainly does spring to mind. I find meetings help though- as i am sure u knw or hav been told. Also the whole one day at a time mantra really does help bring things bk to perspective. Hope u feel better soon, i really do belive things will getbetter soon, hope u have faith in this too :0)
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