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A relapse is usually an indication that we have a "reservation" in our programme.
A "reservation" can be a thought or a feeling that there is something in our life that we absoloutely cannot face without alcohol.
A "reservation" can be just about anything.It could be the death of a loved one.Rejection of a spouse or lover.Losing a job.Serious illness.
A "reservation" can be the thought that maybe one day we will be able to safely drink again.
A 'reservation" can even be the idea that our lives are dull boring and stupid without alcohol or that we "need" alcohol to be able to cope with the enormous stresses in life and to help us sleep.
Unless we completely rid ourselves of any "reservations" we have and "let go of old ideas" about drinking we will always be at risk of a relapse.
A relapse is not an indication that we are worthless or that we have failed.A relapse is a warning that we have to strengthen our commitment to recovery.
Peter.
A "reservation" can be a thought or a feeling that there is something in our life that we absoloutely cannot face without alcohol.
A "reservation" can be just about anything.It could be the death of a loved one.Rejection of a spouse or lover.Losing a job.Serious illness.
A "reservation" can be the thought that maybe one day we will be able to safely drink again.
A 'reservation" can even be the idea that our lives are dull boring and stupid without alcohol or that we "need" alcohol to be able to cope with the enormous stresses in life and to help us sleep.
Unless we completely rid ourselves of any "reservations" we have and "let go of old ideas" about drinking we will always be at risk of a relapse.
A relapse is not an indication that we are worthless or that we have failed.A relapse is a warning that we have to strengthen our commitment to recovery.
Peter.
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Join Date: May 2003
Location: El Paso, Tx
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LG,
Hang in there fortunatly the past doesn't count you only have to worry about this 24 hours!
I know the guilties are aweful but stay strong and try a meeting if your involved in your area AA group.
Praying you'll flick that little bastard off your shoulder!
Hang in there fortunatly the past doesn't count you only have to worry about this 24 hours!
I know the guilties are aweful but stay strong and try a meeting if your involved in your area AA group.
Praying you'll flick that little bastard off your shoulder!
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Join Date: Mar 2003
Location: Utah
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I am in tears
.... and weak. I dont necessarily have an urge to drink. Just for things to stop! I have a good life. Why do I do this? For you all to forgive is a weight off of my shoulders. I am alive and have a new 24 I guess. Pills are what are going to kill me, not the alchohol. At least that is what I am selling myself. Did a MACK truck hit me yesterday? Nope, it was 60 mg. of Klonopin I think! LOL.
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Join Date: May 2003
Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't....
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I am glad you are back today, I understand how powerful the pills are and just wanted to tell you I am thinking about you and have you in my prayers today.
Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie
Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie
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60 mg of clonopin?? egad! No wonder you weren't sober! Still keep coming back here........ there are no perfect ppl.
Me too. I jsut want it all to stop. Oblivion at all costs. I'm finding NOT getting oblivion to be a real muther*****.
I dont necessarily have an urge to drink. Just for things to stop
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Originally posted by MootPoint63
60 mg of clonopin?? egad! No wonder you weren't sober! Still keep coming back here........ there are no perfect ppl.
Me too. I jsut want it all to stop. Oblivion at all costs. I'm finding NOT getting oblivion to be a real muther*****.
60 mg of clonopin?? egad! No wonder you weren't sober! Still keep coming back here........ there are no perfect ppl.
Me too. I jsut want it all to stop. Oblivion at all costs. I'm finding NOT getting oblivion to be a real muther*****.
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