I cried
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I cried
Day 32.
Today I downloaded a collection of Motown hits. I stumbled upon a song I haven't heard for a very long time: Smokey Robinson - The tracks of my tears
While listening to his beautiful voice and the heartbreaking lyrics I started thinking about the past, present and future, the mistakes I made, the possibilities ahead. Then something happened, just like in the song, tears started rolling: I felt alive again, finally feeling emotions again, not the numbness of the hangovers or the fake joy of drunkness.
Just something I wanted to share...
Today I downloaded a collection of Motown hits. I stumbled upon a song I haven't heard for a very long time: Smokey Robinson - The tracks of my tears
While listening to his beautiful voice and the heartbreaking lyrics I started thinking about the past, present and future, the mistakes I made, the possibilities ahead. Then something happened, just like in the song, tears started rolling: I felt alive again, finally feeling emotions again, not the numbness of the hangovers or the fake joy of drunkness.
Just something I wanted to share...
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One thing sobriety does bring back is real emotions again, for me the longer I am sober the more they come back. When I was trying to stay stopped Martin's way it was always the emotions that took me back to drinking again, I had to learn how to deal with emotions without drinking, I had to learn to forgive myself and others, I had to learn that many times when people hurt me it was because of something I had done to them.
Through working the steps I have learned how to deal with shame, anger, confusion, frustration, hate, love, intolerance............ by working the steps I have learned to deal with life on lifes terms sober, this has led to me being happy with myself and of help to others.
The most important thing I have learned about staying stopped is in order to do so I had to change myself from that person I was who drank to deal with everything in life. Simply not drinking did not change a thing about me as a person, for years I would simply stop drinking and change nothing else about me as a person, the only thing that led to was me drinking again, by changing myself the urge/need to drink has been lifted. Today I am a different man.
Through working the steps I have learned how to deal with shame, anger, confusion, frustration, hate, love, intolerance............ by working the steps I have learned to deal with life on lifes terms sober, this has led to me being happy with myself and of help to others.
The most important thing I have learned about staying stopped is in order to do so I had to change myself from that person I was who drank to deal with everything in life. Simply not drinking did not change a thing about me as a person, for years I would simply stop drinking and change nothing else about me as a person, the only thing that led to was me drinking again, by changing myself the urge/need to drink has been lifted. Today I am a different man.
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