Just in a lousy space
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Just in a lousy space
Well, here I am abt 7-1/2 mo sober and man am I feeling in a funk.
If there had been any booze in the house last night I am afraid I would have drank it.
(if you're newly sober, get rid of the booze!!!!!)
I went to a meeting last night and my core group of aa friends was there and I felt comfortable. When I got home though, I was sitting there kind of watching the clock, waiting until I knew that the liquor stors were closed so I could go to bed. Now that's weird, and it's not good.
I know it's fear, I have a Dr appointment today and I am afraid that there may be bad news coming. I know there is something wrong with my colin and I am worried.
Also, my job is really starting to bother me, you see, I care too much and I tend to take things personally. We are so short-staffed that I actually have customers yelling at me, everyday. It's not just me either, yesterday one of the women who works there was reduced to tears. Yes, I am activly looking for another job. I think I may be stuck here for a while though because I simply cannot afford to be without health insurance right now.
Anyhow, thanks for listining.
If there had been any booze in the house last night I am afraid I would have drank it.
(if you're newly sober, get rid of the booze!!!!!)
I went to a meeting last night and my core group of aa friends was there and I felt comfortable. When I got home though, I was sitting there kind of watching the clock, waiting until I knew that the liquor stors were closed so I could go to bed. Now that's weird, and it's not good.
I know it's fear, I have a Dr appointment today and I am afraid that there may be bad news coming. I know there is something wrong with my colin and I am worried.
Also, my job is really starting to bother me, you see, I care too much and I tend to take things personally. We are so short-staffed that I actually have customers yelling at me, everyday. It's not just me either, yesterday one of the women who works there was reduced to tears. Yes, I am activly looking for another job. I think I may be stuck here for a while though because I simply cannot afford to be without health insurance right now.
Anyhow, thanks for listining.
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Ted I have had the "Funks" before as well, not to the point yet of feeling a need for a drink, but simply am in a funky mood. A mood I really do not understand, kind of depressed for no real reason, but as they say in the rooms "This to shall pass" and so far every one of my funks have moved on. I have almost 10 months and really did not have my first "Funk" until I was about 6 or 7 months sober, it has been about a month I guess since my last one.
Ted I do wonder if normal people do not also go through "Funks"? The difference between them and me is for years I simply had another drink and the funk went away.
Ted I do wonder if normal people do not also go through "Funks"? The difference between them and me is for years I simply had another drink and the funk went away.
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glad you came and posted, groucho. i go through funks too. sometimes it just stinks being a grown up, with all it brings? it helps me to just do something i enjoyed as a kid - like eat a sloppy ice cream cone or go out and play in my hose water..
let us know how your appt goes? glad you stayed sober!
blessings, k
let us know how your appt goes? glad you stayed sober!
blessings, k
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Originally Posted by Tazman53 
The difference between them and me is for years I simply had another drink and the funk went away.
No, I never want to go back to the bottle again.
Thanks Taz
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Originally Posted by parentrecovers
eat a sloppy ice cream cone or go out and play in my hose water..
I think the check out girl thought I just broke up with someone.
Thanks K
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Please refresh your memory on PAWS...
http://www.tlctx.com/ar_pages/paw_part1.htm
Prayers for a good outcome today.
Please refresh your memory on PAWS...
http://www.tlctx.com/ar_pages/paw_part1.htm
Prayers for a good outcome today.
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someone told me once that if funky moods start travel to a new meeting hear and meet someone new . I woke up pissed off today but I guess that better than pissin on my self which Ive done a few times.
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Thanks Carol, yep I got paws.
I am so foggy I read it but I could not absorb much. Stress is most definately affecting me now and I am not handeling it well. I am even having trouble typing.
Oh well, I suppose that "This Too Shall Pass"...
I am so foggy I read it but I could not absorb much. Stress is most definately affecting me now and I am not handeling it well. I am even having trouble typing.
Oh well, I suppose that "This Too Shall Pass"...
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Hey Groucho, where are you in your step work ?
I haven't had that "vague feeling of impending doom" since I took step 3. And work is actually , well, not bad. I don't hate it and dreadit like I used to.
As far as your colon. Remember, the worst thing that ever happened to us never happens.
Hang in there, it'll pass.
I haven't had that "vague feeling of impending doom" since I took step 3. And work is actually , well, not bad. I don't hate it and dreadit like I used to.
As far as your colon. Remember, the worst thing that ever happened to us never happens.
Hang in there, it'll pass.
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Hi all,
Yes I am OK.
Went on a commitment meeting last night with my group. I needed that.
Off work today, so I'll be checking here all day.
Going in for procedure Monday. They'll attempt to remove whatever it is and biopsy it.
Hopefully all will be well. It's in God's hands now (actually it always was).
Thanks for all of your support.
Yes I am OK.
Went on a commitment meeting last night with my group. I needed that.
Off work today, so I'll be checking here all day.
Going in for procedure Monday. They'll attempt to remove whatever it is and biopsy it.
Hopefully all will be well. It's in God's hands now (actually it always was).
Thanks for all of your support.
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Hi Ted,
Your post touched me. My dad had a growth on his colon 15 years ago - he's still with us today, thank God. I'm glad you're reaching out to others here in recovery - it's the right thing to do.
Sending you good thoughts.
Rowan xoxo
Your post touched me. My dad had a growth on his colon 15 years ago - he's still with us today, thank God. I'm glad you're reaching out to others here in recovery - it's the right thing to do.
Sending you good thoughts.
Rowan xoxo
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