thiskidknows

I've shut down, I don't feel anything and I no longer care about me, about anything this is a dangerous time for me at the moment. I've been trying to pick myself up and I don't seem to be able to. I surrender to the pain, I surrender to the fight..I've closed for business I can't do this anymore.

Steve58

Hey lost,

We all have days like that. I was quite down on myself yesterday.

Get out and take a walk. How is the weather over there?

Talk to us here!

S

JEI2950

Whats going on , lost child , I'm here and I definately care , just two days ago I posted the very same thing , I felt hopeless and needed to know that someone gave a F**K , I have survived one of the most terrifing things in my life ( the serious thought of suicide ) , because my situation seemed unbearable , I ain't doing too much better today but I attended a meeting and I know in my heart that if no one else in the world cares , I know that they do , and all who posts here do as well , so don't hold back let whatever it is pour out on these pages and let's see if we can assist you in anyway , Please respond , someone still cares love JEI

thiskidknows

Its miserable and grey, its be warm..but I feel cold. pathetic.

I don't know wots going on, I've shut down after a difficult/emotional nite and now i've given up, shut down. I don't feel anything. I feel very sui*idal at the minute, I've been fighting it. Its too dangerous for me to feel like this. know one in the real life wants to listen to me, all my friends have gone, all my family has gone. I don't have anyone, I feel alone and so isolated in the world.

Astro

Two years sober and I still have grey, bleak days. Those are the days I force myself to an AA meeting, where I'm surrounded by people just like myself, who love me unconditionally and help me to feel safe.

Peter

Just keep posting here

thiskidknows

I don't want to anymore. I've been taking tradmadol and read that I shouldn't be drinking with them. I've done too much damage. I'm not responsible enough to have a life. how can I get thru life when I don't see a point. Sorry. I don't want to burden anyone, I've done that enough in my life which i guess is why I now I have no1. Sorry

Missymae737

We are in real life and we want to listen to you, we want to be there for you on the dark days, you are not alone, we are your friends...

Please, seek professional help! There is always someone that cares...Do not give up...

Please know that you are loved in this world...

Slowbriety

surrender to a higher power, works for me.......

Anna

Lost Child,

Please get help for yourself. We do care about you.

parentrecovers

People are listening, and praying, Lostchild.

Anyone know how to link lost to the "If You Are Feeling Suicidal" thread on Newcomers board?

Lost - go the Newcomers in Recovery board and at the top - you'll see the sticky/thread called "If you are feeling suicidal". Lots of good info there.

Meanwhile, I'm praying for you. K

thiskidknows

I read the thread thank you for pointing me in that direction. I feel so low and real bad tonight, I shouldn't be burdening you. I'm really sorry, please don't be mad at me, I'm really sorry...I wish I could deal with how I feel better but I don't know how to.

SaTiT

Piontless everything is piontless. It passes as it always dose,
so what was the piont. I didn't want to be fix...
so please...don't fix me.

I had to surround myself in a safe enviorment. I couldn't see
any beauty...so I spent time in nature. No more right or wrong,
nothing to belive in . I didn't surrender, I gave up.
I couldn't do it anymore, for whatever reasons. I gave up.

deep...deep inside of me was a hurt and lost child.
nobody can ever understand me. i didn't even understand it.
I got the crazy notion of just writing one last song, if it was
going to be the last thing i do on this earth. I cried my heart
out as I recorded that piece of music. I allow that kid inside
of me to play whatever sounded good to him. I couldn't
live for myself for one more moment...i did it for the kid.
Yeah..that kid that nobody knows or gives a hoot about.
The kid has so much to live for. He is innocent.
I do not have the right to take his life.

Tazman53

Lost look it is time to call a hot line, what is whacking your head is not life, it is a combination of the meds and the booze.

Dude I have thought about it myself, but what will you really gain?

Except for your self who do you think is going to feel better?

Do you really think you will feel better?

Look we all care about you, you need to call a hot line as soon as you can.

No one is mad or dissappointed in you!

Do you think we would be replying to you if we were mad or dissappointed?

thiskidknows

I don't know I don't know, I can't think straight. Sorry. my eads all over the place, i don't feel too good at the minute. I ill come back later if ok. Sorry

parentrecovers

no burden, lost. we're just concerned. and want you to get the help you need, close to home. blessings, k

ClimbingOut

The best thing for me was to take a walk. Even if I didn't want to, I forced myself to put one foot in front of the other. Before I knew it, I was enjoying the sunshine, trees, breeze... it didn't kill it altogether, but it lightened the load for me enough to breathe & think straight. Good luck, darlin.

thiskidknows

I went out straight to the pub, it was horrible some women came in she broke down, claimng DV from her boyfriend he turns up, then a friend with 3 blades and drugs on him, it was horrible and has triggered me too much. i'm now feelin tipsy, on edge and su*, i've called samaritans they said only i was in control, they didn't help me. no1 can, why do i try to make myself better, why do i want to change when everyone seems to want to make me feel worse. goodnite and godbless. sorry everyone, I failed..i'm a failure

parentrecovers

i wish i had answers for you, lost. blessings, k

Missymae737

Keep trying!!! Can you check yourself into a hospital? Can you call on a friend?? Your situation is not hopeless...

I am saying a prayer for you...

You are loved...