Talluleh

Hiya Hush, just checking in to ask how your meeting went today, well it's still almost day time for me here.

Congrats on going to your second meeting! You're doing so well.

Hush007

Hey Tally,

The meeting went great sugah. It also came at the right moment. Yesterday afternoon my mom called me on mt cell phone to tell me that my uncle who has been put in some kind of artificial coma (I wrote something about this in the past I think) is getting worse. They had to put him on 100% Oxygen but cannot maintain that a long time. He's dying. They are going to "pull the plug" today or tomorrow.

When I got home I really had to fight the urge to go out and have a drink. But then I thought to myself "That is just weak,...using your uncles misery to tell yourself you can have a drink". He is an alcoholic as well. I turned the situation "in my advantage" by telling myself to stay sober because that is what would make him proud.

I feel so bad for his son! His mother died (cancer) when he was 18 years old. Now he's gonna lose his dad! No parents,... and he's 30!

But anyway,... in the evening I went to AA and got all this stuff off my chest. Everybody was there for me (and the others who had a lousy week). I really love AA. It has only been my second meeting,... but I love those people.

Did I tell you I brought cookies? Well,...I did. They were all very happy. There are always cookies present,...but always the same kind.

Big hug to all,

Philip

When I got home

barb dwyer

Hush wrote -
When you got home .. what?
(Stuff like that gets my alcoholic mind going, man)

That level of honesty, bro - is how people stay sober. Good going.

I'm sorry about your uncle, hon.

For me, it's all about the 'next right thing' !

barb

Hush007

When I got home from the long walk in the sun Barb. I was having a walk when my mother called.

Talluleh

Hush, I'm so sorry to hear about your uncle, that is terrible. You should be proud of yourself for not drinking though, you really thought it through. Right now drinking wouldn't make you feel better plus you would have had a hangover today. I will never stop NOT missing those..

We have a weekend coming up again pal... we can do this..

Holler if you need me.

Big hug
Talluleh!

Tazman53

Well Hush I am so happy you are finding what I have found in the rooms of AA.

Have you found your emotions are all over the place?

You know in my first 2-3 months my emotions were all over the place, the one thing I am very thankful for is that anger was not one of the players in that game.

In the rooms I have learned that when someone drinks as long as I did that I had forgotten what real emotions were, man were they right. I used to stratch my head and wonder why in the world would some one cry when they were happy? Well now I know, the happiness overcomes me and I have no choice but to shed a tear. Do not get me wrong, I do not bawl like a baby, but there is a very strong swelling in my chest and throat and my eyes do tear a lot and some times one of them sneaky tears runs down my cheek!

Man I love sobriety! I love hearing folks like you hush share the love and support you find in the rooms of AA because I can totally relate. I still wonder to my self "What in the world was I so darn scared of in those rooms?"

I have a really strong feeling that what I was really scared of was getting sober and not what was in those rooms!

CarolD

Prayers for comfort and peace to you and your family
as you walk through this sad time.

I do think not drinking is the best way to honor your uncle.

Mega Hugs

Tazman53

Hush my sincerest apologies for not mentioning your uncle, odd as it sounds when I first started that post I meant to mention my prayers would be with him and you and your family as well.

Prayers and a hug to boot hush.

fraankie

there is something in the steps about this stuff
like
i used to drink
cause i carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
starvation in africa
injustice in the world
oj trial
wars in foreign lands
burdens, burdens, burdens
drink,
drink,
drink

if you access the steps and punch in keywords
you may find it

i think the 4th step, actually

anyway, God has a plan
and
yes, there is hardship to others
but
if i stay sober
at least i won't be a hrdship to them
and
you can comfort your uncle
and
you can tell him
"if you need anything, call"

i've done it
ok, maybe they don't call
but
i was able to say it
and
mean it



best
fraankie

IO Storm

Hush.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

It sounds like, even in the midst of this sadness, you are also right where you are supposed to be.

Love,

IO

IO Storm

We have great great big shoulders to cry on.


IO

Hush007

Thank you all for the love and support! You guys/girls are the greatest!

It is done,... they have shut down his life support yesterday evening now. I take comfort in the fact that he will be together with his wife in heaven now. He started drinking when she got cancer and it got even worse when she died. Sometimes they found him sleeping next to her gravestone when he had been drinking. Over the years he went in and out of detox. The last year he was doing fine (not drinking and all) cuz he wanted to stay sober for his grandchild. When you think about all this,... God,....it is oh so sad.

Anyway, the funeral will be next thursday. After the funeral I will go straight to AA.

Love,

Philip

CarolD

Sad indeed... Super Hugs

Good plan and know we are here 24/7 too.

Talluleh

Hush, I'm so sorry to hear this. You are right, he is in heaven with his wife. I think it's quite an accomplishment that he stayed sober this past year. You would do well to honour him with your sobriety, and you are doing that.

Sending you a HUGE hug!!!
Love Talluleh

Emimily

hush, this is a bit after the fact, but just so you know... i used to joke at meetings that i only went for the cookies and the hand holding. i still joke about that, actually.

i am so sorry about your uncle, though. all cookie/hand holding thoughts aside, you're in my prayers, dearie, even though this is almost two weeks past the initial post.

much much love, kiddo.

parentrecovers

sorry to hear about your loss, hush. talluleh is right - you honor his memory with your sobriety.

blessings, k

(and good job on bringing the cookies! no cookies at alanon meetings, i'm going to take some next time i go, on your suggestion..)

Talluleh

And just for the records, HUSH has THIRTY ONE DAYS!!

Way to go my friend.

parentrecovers

no way!

Talluleh

WAY!!!! lol

Emimily

wh-whoo! i would hi-five you, were it possible... internet hi-five!

(i am a silly girl)