liss74

I know to ring sponser before I pick up yet again I didn't because I know she will stop me probably hate myself yet again

Jeni26

Liss, I'm sorry you're struggling. You know the fact you're even posting proves you really don't want to pick up. Phone her...or phone someone...no-one can 'stop you' if you're determined to drink, but I'm thinking there's a part of you, a big part, that doesn't want to be on this path any more.

sugarbear1

Are you ready to stay stopped?

Signal30

You can either call or drink. If you don't want to call because you want to drink then perhaps you may want to at least pause, ask your Higher Power for help, then make the next move.

mick3580

Most alcoholics can't call before they drink. Otherwise, they'd do it and never drink. I always suggest that people work the steps and they'll likely never have to rely on the phone to keep them sober. It has been that way with me.

liss74

thank you

Db1105

Alcoholics Anonymous was founded by one drunk reaching out to another when wanting to drink. Once I accepted that I was powerless over alcohol and my life was unmanageable. And, that I was willing to go to any length to get sober. Picking up that phone and talking to another alcoholic was an instrumental tool in getting through those moments when the compulsion to drink was overwhelming. That, and just putting it off for 5 minutes, and sometimes a minute. You do get through it. Just keep trying.