Originally Posted by
liss74 
I know to ring sponser before I pick up yet again I didn't because I know she will stop me probably hate myself yet again
Alcoholics Anonymous was founded by one drunk reaching out to another when wanting to drink. Once I accepted that I was powerless over alcohol and my life was unmanageable. And, that I was willing to go to any length to get sober. Picking up that phone and talking to another alcoholic was an instrumental tool in getting through those moments when the compulsion to drink was overwhelming. That, and just putting it off for 5 minutes, and sometimes a minute. You do get through it. Just keep trying.