Starting Again. Day 1
Starting Again. Day 1
I've been on a bender since last Thursday.
I got so drunk that I passed out in front of my daughter.
But today is the start. Again.
I have a lot of fences to mend and a lot of trust to try build back up.
I feel horrible, physically and mentally.
But I stopped before, so I know I can do it again.
The trick is staying stopped.
I let my defences down and became really casual about recovery.
So here goes again!
I got so drunk that I passed out in front of my daughter.
But today is the start. Again.
I have a lot of fences to mend and a lot of trust to try build back up.
I feel horrible, physically and mentally.
But I stopped before, so I know I can do it again.
The trick is staying stopped.
I let my defences down and became really casual about recovery.
So here goes again!
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Sydney Australia
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Welcome back, Eric.
Congrats on making this your day 1 and hope you stick around for a while this time. There's lots of support here if you are really ready to stop this time.
Look forward to seeing you around.
Congrats on making this your day 1 and hope you stick around for a while this time. There's lots of support here if you are really ready to stop this time.
Look forward to seeing you around.
My has asked me not to come home for a while.
I can understand that.
But the addict in me wants to go home and start putting things right straight away.
Time, however, is needed.
Have that horrible physical feeling.
Bad anxiety too.
But slowly does it.
I can understand that.
But the addict in me wants to go home and start putting things right straight away.
Time, however, is needed.
Have that horrible physical feeling.
Bad anxiety too.
But slowly does it.
I'm in work right now.
Have to go to the city centre to pick a kid up from a police station. He's drunk and aggressive.
I would rather be ANYWHERE else.
Still, up and at 'em, eh?
Have to go to the city centre to pick a kid up from a police station. He's drunk and aggressive.
I would rather be ANYWHERE else.
Still, up and at 'em, eh?
Day 2.
Not feeling half as bad.
Spending some time with my little girl.
I love her so much.
And she really loves me.
Very early days but when my wife decides to speak to me again, I'll feel even better.
Not feeling half as bad.
Spending some time with my little girl.
I love her so much.
And she really loves me.
Very early days but when my wife decides to speak to me again, I'll feel even better.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Sydney Australia
Posts: 4,225
Glad you are sticking it out, Eric. 3 whole days is awesome....I clung onto those so much in the beginning...it's so important to look after yourself and pat yourself on the back for taking a positive step.
Oh man.
Just spoke to my wife on the phone.
She was horrible to me.
She's really hurt by my relapse, I know, but she couldn't even be civil. She won't allow me home at the moment and I asked about visiting my daughter at home for the sake of normality. She's punishing me. I get that.
Just spoke to my wife on the phone.
She was horrible to me.
She's really hurt by my relapse, I know, but she couldn't even be civil. She won't allow me home at the moment and I asked about visiting my daughter at home for the sake of normality. She's punishing me. I get that.
Welcome back Eric
I don't know your wife but I know I let my partner down a lot of times. It took a while for resentments to be worked through and trust to be regained.
I called it taking my lumps. I deserved them, in my case, but they weren't forever
D
I don't know your wife but I know I let my partner down a lot of times. It took a while for resentments to be worked through and trust to be regained.
I called it taking my lumps. I deserved them, in my case, but they weren't forever
D
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