juliwuli

i wrote on another thread that i had been sober for 6 months, this was a lie i guess i was ashamed to admit i was still a drunk, and a hopeless drunk, anyway last fryday i went and got drunk at the pub, when we got home a frightening scary thing started to happen to me, i wont say what it was because i will get told i should have gone to hospital but i didnt, im ok now but im so frightened it will happen again if i drink, which i dont want to ,
anyway i asked for this to happen to me, i prayed to god a few weeks ago and asked him to make me ill so i physically couldnt drink, and it looks like he answered my prayer,
so here i am, this is my wake up call, as far as im concerned if i drink again i could well die, i sank as low as i could go, almost died, almost lost everything and now ive been given another chance, i feel strangely calm for some reason and more optimistic than for a long , long time just thought i'd share this ,

SlvrMag

Thats how I felt the last time I used. It was scary and I never want to feel that way again. Whenever I feel like I want to use I think of that time.

juliwuli

its now 11 days, i thought by now i would have bags of energy but i havent, is this normal? does any one know how long it takes to feel 'normal' again, although i guess with the ammount i got through it will take time to recover but i'm so tired,
TIA

soarinhigh

I am on day 11 and like you I am waiting for energy and motivation. I am also waiting for the mood swings to ease up. I am often bored and unsure of what to do with myself. Throughout all of it though I am happy for my short sobriety. For us, I think time is our best friend

shanman422

juliwuli, how you are feeling today? I hope you are still reading and posting... This place is wonderful, isn't it? Today is day 24 for me... I have been up and down through out my recovery. Last week I was extremely tired, but this week so far I have felt much more energized. Everyone reacts differently... but I assure you it will get better. One day at a time!

Pam08

Wow, read this and can feel for you, relapses as they call them get worse each time, my last was the worst yet. I am so afraid to drink again as I do fear death or mental lock up. Keep posting, would like to know how you are doing. I am day 9 today. and plugging. :praying

nixbereuen

Hola.. Day 2 here.. I came here to post something similar, now I don't need to.. I thought I was the only one scared, afraid of alcohol-related death. I'm also trying to get better... thanks for sharing.

CarolD

Congratulations on chooseing sobriety!