Sitting in bed searching for an answer to stop
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Sitting in bed searching for an answer to stop
I drank from the moment I came home at night until I was tired enough to go to bed. Everyday for at least 7 years. I was wanting to stop this insanity but couldn't. I was sick of it. I decided that night to make that my last drink. Now its 52 days and holding.
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I used up the last of my marijuana today. I tossed two large buds in the toilet and smoked the remainder, a bowl's worth. I'm really scared. When I did it and signed up on this site, my heart was pounding.
I know I need to do this. My smoking is an escape that I have to replace with something healthy.
One of the most difficult parts is that my husband smokes and I don't want to ask him to quit. I've been thinking about accommodations he can make to help me get a strong start.
I know I need to do this. My smoking is an escape that I have to replace with something healthy.
One of the most difficult parts is that my husband smokes and I don't want to ask him to quit. I've been thinking about accommodations he can make to help me get a strong start.
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You did the right thing!
Magoo-I am so understanding your pain. The best way to deal is to get though each hour you would have used and be proud you didn't. Go to AA its for all kinds of substance abuse. You will be accepted and it will give you more weapons in this war you are fighting. You will win. You will also find a new way to deal with lifes anxiety that is better than any buzz that drug gave you but it takes guts and determination. You have to want it!!! You can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Regarding your husband
Definitely ask him to do his smoking out of your presence but if he doesn't go with that you have to take the attitude that his actions are not going to push you off your path because you already made a choice and you don't need his approval or support eventhough of course it would be nice to have it.
The sad thing is I have come to detest liquor and the hold it has over me. It's moved from addiction (and fun) to a necessity. I'm too afraid to try to sleep without it; the last time I did I was awake for days. I just hope that soon I can kick the habit...
Coquette --
I know exactly what you are going through now. For me the hardest part of the withdrawals was the terrible insomnia, being zombified the next day with only 1-2 hours of sleep the night before AT BEST. I am now 3 and a half weeks clean and sleep is SO Much better. I get a good 6-7 hours each night and only will take me 20-30 minutes to fall asleep.
You have the strength to get through that first week of no sleep, just rent a bunch of movies and keep visiting these forums late at night. that helped me a lot my first week.
Be safe and good luck,
Scott
I know exactly what you are going through now. For me the hardest part of the withdrawals was the terrible insomnia, being zombified the next day with only 1-2 hours of sleep the night before AT BEST. I am now 3 and a half weeks clean and sleep is SO Much better. I get a good 6-7 hours each night and only will take me 20-30 minutes to fall asleep.
You have the strength to get through that first week of no sleep, just rent a bunch of movies and keep visiting these forums late at night. that helped me a lot my first week.
Be safe and good luck,
Scott
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