not comfortable in my skin......
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not comfortable in my skin......
I am just feeling really sad today--so many people here are in pain-
and friends of mine are relapsing---I know I can't "fix" things but I can't help my feelings....
I am crying a lot---uggh....I prefer to "coast" when it comes to feelings....
and I usually do----but that "bump" in the road hits---
sometimes I get really beside myself when I feel sad....I think because I used to drink so I could feel.....now the feelings come all on their own....don't get me wrong I am grateful to be sober and be right where I am however part of me wants to crawl right out of my skin..........................
Does anyone relate?????
and friends of mine are relapsing---I know I can't "fix" things but I can't help my feelings....
I am crying a lot---uggh....I prefer to "coast" when it comes to feelings....
and I usually do----but that "bump" in the road hits---
sometimes I get really beside myself when I feel sad....I think because I used to drink so I could feel.....now the feelings come all on their own....don't get me wrong I am grateful to be sober and be right where I am however part of me wants to crawl right out of my skin..........................
Does anyone relate?????
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Hi Cali,
Yes, I can relate. I see a lot of pain here - and elsewhere - today, and it's hard not to take it all on. And I get such overwhelming feelings of sadness for all of it - and I'm not comfortable with such emotion, either. But it's getting easier.
I get so much from your posts, and you display such courage and compassion - let yourself feel - and keep reaching out to others. Try to practice good self-care today and maybe do something nice for yourself.
Rowan xoxo
Yes, I can relate. I see a lot of pain here - and elsewhere - today, and it's hard not to take it all on. And I get such overwhelming feelings of sadness for all of it - and I'm not comfortable with such emotion, either. But it's getting easier.
I get so much from your posts, and you display such courage and compassion - let yourself feel - and keep reaching out to others. Try to practice good self-care today and maybe do something nice for yourself.
Rowan xoxo
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Thank you so much Rowan for your kind words. I also am working on accepting compliments and kind words...so much easier to give then to receive----but like you said "it's getting easier". I feel better
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My co-workers must think I am totally nuts---I just heard he good news about Gwen--I am sitting back here in my little cubicle crying tears of joy--
Roller coaster today---woo hoo!!
Yay ((((Gwen))))
Roller coaster today---woo hoo!!
Yay ((((Gwen))))
Oh yes!!! I can definately relate to it.....
But, what I do is try to remember what it was like in active addiction. And I can remember that the skin I was in then was a heck of alot worst to live in then the skin I live in now.
I remember not being able to look in the mirror and be happy.
I longed for a chance to be a part of something normal, I looked at other people (normal people) having a good time and wished I could be a part of it.
The road I travel down now helps me realize the road I once traveled. To know I have been down the road to hell and have come out of it makes me grateful.
I know I have come into this post kinda late...but it was something that sparked a familiar feeling I have felt before.
Thanks for letting me share.
Love,
Deb
But, what I do is try to remember what it was like in active addiction. And I can remember that the skin I was in then was a heck of alot worst to live in then the skin I live in now.
I remember not being able to look in the mirror and be happy.
I longed for a chance to be a part of something normal, I looked at other people (normal people) having a good time and wished I could be a part of it.
The road I travel down now helps me realize the road I once traveled. To know I have been down the road to hell and have come out of it makes me grateful.
I know I have come into this post kinda late...but it was something that sparked a familiar feeling I have felt before.
Thanks for letting me share.
Love,
Deb
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