Luckyv2

Have you ever just had one of those days where you just had to literally make yourself do everything? I mean from the time I woke up I had to make myself make my bed, literally force myself to do my morning readings, read my NA Basic Text. Then I had to make myself get into action on going and being a responsible, productive, member of society, when I really didn't want to do it at all.

Then when I got off of work I had to get my lab work done for my treatment that I am on and went and drove to the doctors and they were closed tell me now isn't today Monday? So I went on home and cooked to tired to cook a big meal so I had Ramon Noodles Then it is time for a meeting, to tired to go but I know the rule there you go when you don't want to go and when you want to go.

So after the meeting I am driving home and this thought has been going on in my head all day, "What would an adult do?" Well I get home from the meeting I check my emails (actually have people who like me ), then I am shot right? Then I have F***en Dans words come into my head about dishes LOL so I get up and do my dishes. Well I just kept saying keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Now mind you I wasn't too damn thrilled about doing a whole lot today but I did it. I still am not too thrilled about having to chair the on-line meeting tonight either but I am responsible right? What would an Adult do? Well I am sure they would do what I did even if they did just have ONE OF THOSE DAYS>

Love Vic

Doug

What would an adult do?

I like that Vic, I really do....I've never thought of it that way. And yes, I've had those days too, fortunately, its not everyday.

shutterbug

I've been having those days for about 15 months now, but not as successfully as you. After a few months...I gave into those days and didn't do anything for weeks and months...and still don't want to.

You did awsome, b/c you were strong enough to do the things you needed to do. You should be very proud of yourself!

P.S. I stopped washing dishes a very long time ago....if I can't use disposable dishes then I just don't cook it.

Luckyv2

Yep, I am glad that everyday isn't like that LOL and BTW Doug I wish that I could take credit for that saying but Well I just wouldn't be honest if I said I made that one up.


Hum I never thought of that LOL. I wonder if an adult would do that?

Love Vic

Luckyv2

So after yesterday I not only did my dishes, I vacuumed, read more out of my NA book and was just totally wiped out. I chaired the on-line meeting and had a few people show up so that was a good thing. So after that I decided it was a full day and went to bed.

OK now today OMG I had to get my blood work done and the nurse told me that I could go anywhere to have it drawn right? So I woke up late, called the guy that I am painting this two million dollar home for told him I was running late. I went down to my doctors to get my blood work done got there about 9. So I am sitting there and about 9:45 this guy nurse came over and said that they could not do the blood work there. I thought OK fine I will go to the University Hospital where my doc that ordered all of this sh!t done in the first place right.

Then I leave and I have a call from this owner of the house wondering where I am it is 10. Well I called so I don't have time really to mess with him right now because I have to have this blood work done by today. I get to the University Hospital and go to the blood lab and they say that I have to go to administrations first. OK I go there and wait another half hour and go back to get the blood taken. The nurse says which vein I said this one is really good but be careful it rolls LOL..So she takes the blood and this guy comes in and ask who are these 5 vials for OMG they are mine so now she has to do the whole thing again. You know for a junkie I really don't like needles too much anymore.

Anyway I feel weak after all that but "What would an Adult do?" I guess go to work so I went to work and put in about 4 hours today and said that was enough. I am just shot, it feels as if I don't have energy, I am pushing all I have right now even. I am going to try and stay up and go to a meeting but I was thinking hum a nap would be nice too. But then I have to work my steps also. Well here is another day clean and sober right?

Love Vic