Dan

Isn't Crazytown that place between my ears?

Don W

Dan, I think that would make a great song. Not sure your old enough but, Ricky Nelson's " Lonesome Town". (Going down to Crazytown, where the broken lives live.) Ok, you got the next verse.

bahookie

Thanks for this thread -

so, what are some signs of relapse? I think I see things, things I would hear my A partner talking about when she was well, things she recognised in others.

Everything is someone else's fault (usually mine - if I hadn't a cat she wouldn't have picked up a half-chewed mouse instead of the keys lol)
If we moved to America or New Zealand it would all be ok (?)
Shiftiness around 7pm, first joint time (at least I think it's first joint time)
Insular, defensive and dismissive
Constant lying about stuff that's just daft
Nearly entirely inhabits fantasy world of future plans and bullsh**
Days and weeks solidly spent watching movies and playing computer games

What do you think, am I on the right track or just being a bitch?

Jane
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angelgirl

Hey,

Don't know about you Dan, but Crazy town IS the place between my ears,,

The voices wanted me to tell you that,, LOL..

Love ya all,
Becky

minnie

Jane, I think you're on the right track - what does your little voice say? That's usually what you need to listen to, so you can get out of the way.

Son't forget - relapse happens way before picking up.

Time2Surrender

Here is some stuff I put together on relapse and relapse prevention. http://s8.invisionfree.com/HotRods_a...hp?showforum=3

bahookie

Oh my. I don't know what to day but oh my.

Thank you for that, I don't know how it made me feel - as Minnie said, my wee inner voice has known all along that things are pretty scary - reading it straight from another is a bit disturbing.

I guess it gives me less space to hide in.

If I was to check off all the things I recognise there might be perhaps 3 or 4 left out.

Don't know what to do with this information... think I should print it off and give it to her as she sets off for the "Work in New Zealand" show this week?

J
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Ps what's magical thinking?

minnie

Hon, she needs to figure this out for herself. You just focus on what is and isn't acceptable behaviour to live with.

Time2Surrender

I totally agree.Very well put.Take care of yourself first.

bahookie

Morning!

The trouble with this one is that I don't know if I'm overreacting to stuff. One day I might think that I can handle some of it (i.e. that the positives outweight the negatives) and the next all I can think is that I want out, out, out!

My plan of action right now is to get on with rebuilding my own life and social circle. i would imagine that would put everything else in perspective.

thank you so much

J
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Ps so what is magical thinking?

Don W

I know what you mean. I've been sailing alone at work. Handleing situations that arise. Tonight, there was a problem and I reverted back to the old, I've got to escape" stuff. My first thought was to find another job by going across the street to the hospital I used to work at. I know they'd take me back in a second. I had to fight myself to not act impulsively. Tommoro there will be a continuation and I dread it. There is one employee that is never happy. He has acused me of being unfair. Other employees have approached me and encouraged me not to listen. The problem is he spoke to my boss and she listens sometimes to his crap. I resent having to defend myself. Could this be the old, all I've done-why me. I'm sober, I'm doing the right things most of the time, why should I be questioned or challenged? I mean, I am Captain America afterall.