Recover -- not forgetting how dysfunctional we were when drunk
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Recovery -- not forgetting how dysfunctional we were when drunk
for I wish not to deceive myself -- and with some time sober now
forget that I had some rough around the edges moments while drunk
just two of the many that cross my mind still today after 6 years sober
when the wife and I went down to buy a new couch 7 years ago
I was drunk on that day
due to my patience level (very low) while shopping
we ended up buying a couch just a little short of what I would want
I had forgotten about this as sober time moved on
a while back I asked of the wife
how in the heck did we buy a couch that I can not totally lay down flat on
she looked at me and said
"because you were drunk on the day in which we bought the couch"
hit me like a ton of bricks
there it was yet again
the wreckage of my past still here to haunt me
or
to remind me of why I wish not to deceive myself today with a drink
another occasion that comes to mind from around 7 years ago
we were at a bicycle shop buying a new bicycle seat
the older guy there (around my age) was a jerk
oh yes I not only noticed this but was more than ready to give him
back some of the same that he was dishing out
today sober how would I handle this
keeping my cool as I think to myself
by the Grace of God there go I
showing some self control is one of the great gifts of sobriety
MM
Proverbs 25:28 ESV
A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls.
forget that I had some rough around the edges moments while drunk
just two of the many that cross my mind still today after 6 years sober
when the wife and I went down to buy a new couch 7 years ago
I was drunk on that day
due to my patience level (very low) while shopping
we ended up buying a couch just a little short of what I would want
I had forgotten about this as sober time moved on
a while back I asked of the wife
how in the heck did we buy a couch that I can not totally lay down flat on
she looked at me and said
"because you were drunk on the day in which we bought the couch"
hit me like a ton of bricks
there it was yet again
the wreckage of my past still here to haunt me
or
to remind me of why I wish not to deceive myself today with a drink
another occasion that comes to mind from around 7 years ago
we were at a bicycle shop buying a new bicycle seat
the older guy there (around my age) was a jerk
oh yes I not only noticed this but was more than ready to give him
back some of the same that he was dishing out
today sober how would I handle this
keeping my cool as I think to myself
by the Grace of God there go I
showing some self control is one of the great gifts of sobriety
MM
Proverbs 25:28 ESV
A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls.
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Oh yes, MMB,
I shudder to think of what a jackass I made of myself quite a few times.
Hurts a hundredfold hearing about it years later.
Starting recovery today. Again.
Gotta get it right this time. Can't deal with it anymore.
I shudder to think of what a jackass I made of myself quite a few times.
Hurts a hundredfold hearing about it years later.
Starting recovery today. Again.
Gotta get it right this time. Can't deal with it anymore.
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I spent 3 weekends this spring refinishing outdoor furniture that I'd treated with the wrong stain. I was drunk when I did the job 6 years ago. Hours of sanding was a very good way to remind me that the chronic drinking life was one bungled job after another...
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Originally Posted by littlefish 
I spent 3 weekends this spring refinishing outdoor furniture that I'd treated with the wrong stain. I was drunk when I did the job 6 years ago. Hours of sanding was a very good way to remind me that the chronic drinking life was one bungled job after another...
these worse experiences while drunk
are actually our best experiences
why ?
because they are so convincing
ever reminding us to stay clear of the liquid devil today
MM
We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
We will comprehend the word serenity.
And we will know peace.
We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
We will comprehend the word serenity.
And we will know peace.
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Originally Posted by Mountainmanbob
for I wish not to deceive myself -- and with some time sober now forget that I had some rough around the edges moments while drunk.
Yeah, I guess I've had a few of those.
However, I don't think I'll be forgetting them anytime soon.
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Thanks Mountainman!
I have a built in forgetter, so its vital for me to look back and Remember When.... and to be very grateful that I don't have to live there anymore.
Those experiences from my past, serve me well today. I can use them to reach out and help another alcoholic to identify and in doing so, its me who gets to walk away sober for this one day .....
It keeps it really green for me.
I have a built in forgetter, so its vital for me to look back and Remember When.... and to be very grateful that I don't have to live there anymore.
Those experiences from my past, serve me well today. I can use them to reach out and help another alcoholic to identify and in doing so, its me who gets to walk away sober for this one day .....
It keeps it really green for me.
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I asked my 16 year old to write honestly about how my drinking hurt her. Put it in the binder next to a lovely letter she had written me when I was sober. Now, if I ever want to drink, I can look at that and see it in black and white. The contrast.
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