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27 hours in
kratom led me to heroin again for about 3 weeks im hurting and feel like **** i cant believe im back in square one need super support.... mentally not strong enough to go through with it but i want to be. got honest with the family and girlfirend and once again very supportive ....... what to expect i know what to expect but i need your opinion again to tell me when ill start feeling better. im super restless crawly skin back pain n no sleep for me tonight guaranteed
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That’s the thing with addiction... you do it even though you know the outcome will be bad.
Try to remember how bad the withdrawals are and keep that with you next time you feel like using.
For me with alcohol, I’ve relapsed a few times and who knows how many more? Hopefully 0.
Try to remember how bad the withdrawals are and keep that with you next time you feel like using.
For me with alcohol, I’ve relapsed a few times and who knows how many more? Hopefully 0.
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well 45 hours with absolutely nothing and my back is bugging the crap out of me 3 more hours until i start day 3 just wish time would go by and withdrawals would go down i know sleep isnt coming for another 5-6 days but i just want to be able to function at my 96hour mark i have to be back at work ......... my back is the only thing that is bugging me at the moment from a scale 1-10 im about 8 not really rls like last night idk what to expect anymore.... i keep pushing through hours that feel like days passing
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here rereading my post as i sit under 14 hours since my last dose. skin is crawling, leg is dancing, cant sleep oh i put myself through so much ****.... so dissappointed and depressed at the choices i made. wanting to use again but not wanting to because i want to be clean but these 3 days are so hard and critical. im ranting this sucks
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Hi GD. Sorry to hear of your big struggle. It really sucks, doesn't it? That darn Kratom !! It wreaks havoc. And of course we know what heroin does. I'm not glad you're suffering, but I am glad you had the presence of mind to seek out help and support here. We're here and we care!!
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Hang in there, godsdrummer209 & I hope you are doing much better by now.
It does get better, as you know, this isn't your first rodeo.
In the last 5 or so years I thought I could substitute my DOC (heroin, meth, coke - or any pill I could put in a needle) with alcohol and pot. I have come to learn more recently that substitution is not a viable option for someone like me. I'm an addict, and the only safe and sane alternative to my DOC is sobriety.
Again, best of luck and hope you are well today.
It does get better, as you know, this isn't your first rodeo.
In the last 5 or so years I thought I could substitute my DOC (heroin, meth, coke - or any pill I could put in a needle) with alcohol and pot. I have come to learn more recently that substitution is not a viable option for someone like me. I'm an addict, and the only safe and sane alternative to my DOC is sobriety.
Again, best of luck and hope you are well today.
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well im at 99 hours right now... feeling exhausted since i couldnt sleep i decided i would go on a fishing trip that was a success.... now work starts in about 3 hours so that should be fun itll be hell better be exhausted than having symptoms of day 1 2 and 3 .... horrible im blessed my only symptom now is insomnia
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