dsmaxis10

I shot morphine a couple times a month or two ago and woke up a sleeping giant. I used to a lot of vicodin ten years ago then two years ago thought it was behind me. But the beast is back. Just wanted to admit I was an addict. Day seven. Had 3 1/2 years once that was four years ago.

sugarangel

7 days is amazing. You did this before, and I know you can do it again!! We are all here for you. Thank you for sharing, and know that I am around if you ever want to talk. I'm always on the hydro thread. or you can pm me.
It gets better. But, you know that. Stay strong!! You are in my thoughts.

dsmaxis10

Actually today is day one klonopin perscribed has been making me crave alcohol like a madman. So now it's way easier to stay sober. And yes were star seeds.

Dee74

You can do this dsmaxis

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PhoenixJ

do you have a plan to stay clean, sober? do you have regular support in place?

dsmaxis10

Yes I have a plan I made it 27 hours without taking a klonopin then had no choice it was take one or drink. And if I drink again i'm afraid I'm gonna die. Sorry this is substance abuse I don't abuse klonopin what I'm I'm saying is i want ti stop but i'm gonna have to taper now I have cold turkry 30 750 mg vikes before. What I'm saying is it hits the same receptors as alcohol so how am I gonna lose the obsession to drink why I'm taking it it's my theory, I'm only gonna take one when I feel like I'm gonna pass out from with drawal prn not just because the bottle says take this much.

dsmaxis10

Well I admit I gave it my all but I started to hallucinate just kidding I have schizophrenia so I do admit I "m an addict sober ain't a nuff I want off this crap I want to be clean will I have to always take medication for schizophrenia I don't know but I'm not going to NA until I'm off benzo's.

finaltime

How are you doing? Thinking about you. You can go to NA even on benzos. Just know you are not alone.

sugarangel

How are you doing?? You okay?? Let us know. I am in horrible benzo wds, so I feel your pain. I was taking 1 and a half mgs a day and went cold turkey, so when I say I understand, I really do. I am here for you, and you can pm me if you like. Benzo wds are no joke.
I am thinking about you, and you are in my prayers. Just remember, like Final said, you are not alone. We are stumbling down the same path together.

dsmaxis10

Hell I've addicted to everything I've only been going to AA I don't want to be one but I'am . Opiates porn gambling alcohol sex with paranoid schizophrenia the ruled out that it was not caused by any drug. Hey two weeks off everything but benzos but I have to say I was so paranoid people where following and stuff anxiety was threw the roof. I'll get off the benzos but first the other monster have to be dealt with.