A quick check in...
A quick check in...
Haven't really posted much lately.
I started taking suboxone on July 9th. My last vicodin was on the 4th of July. I had been on a path over the last few years that was very slowly but very surely progressing. I'm no stranger to pain pills. Those and benzos were my thing.
I've been missing the vicodin over the last few days. Usually pms brings on those kinds of feelings. That was when I would abuse them the heaviest.
Suboxone is definitely different. It doesn't make me feel high. I often forget to take it. But I don't have the PAWS symptoms that I had before or the constant cravings. Still taking the same tiny amount.
I'm not missing days at work, so I can have my be alone with my pills days... I'm way more productive at work and I work harder and smarter. I have a VERY stressful job!!
I'm alot more interested in what's going on around me instead of what's going on "inside" me. I'm nicer but my husband says I'm more "matter of fact". Not exactly sure what to make of that.
The first lesson I learned is that I am definitely not in control of the vicodin anymore. I am powerless as soon as I take that first pill. Took me a long time to come to terms with that. For as long as I live, I will never be able to take pain pills responsibly. Period. The higher power is a tough one too. I go back and forth on that one, not sure what I believe.
I'm still reading on here, I have alot of recovery work books and things to study.
I am still around and I'm doing ok!!
I started taking suboxone on July 9th. My last vicodin was on the 4th of July. I had been on a path over the last few years that was very slowly but very surely progressing. I'm no stranger to pain pills. Those and benzos were my thing.
I've been missing the vicodin over the last few days. Usually pms brings on those kinds of feelings. That was when I would abuse them the heaviest.
Suboxone is definitely different. It doesn't make me feel high. I often forget to take it. But I don't have the PAWS symptoms that I had before or the constant cravings. Still taking the same tiny amount.
I'm not missing days at work, so I can have my be alone with my pills days... I'm way more productive at work and I work harder and smarter. I have a VERY stressful job!!
I'm alot more interested in what's going on around me instead of what's going on "inside" me. I'm nicer but my husband says I'm more "matter of fact". Not exactly sure what to make of that.
The first lesson I learned is that I am definitely not in control of the vicodin anymore. I am powerless as soon as I take that first pill. Took me a long time to come to terms with that. For as long as I live, I will never be able to take pain pills responsibly. Period. The higher power is a tough one too. I go back and forth on that one, not sure what I believe.
I'm still reading on here, I have alot of recovery work books and things to study.
I am still around and I'm doing ok!!
Haven't really posted much lately.
I started taking suboxone on July 9th. My last vicodin was on the 4th of July. I had been on a path over the last few years that was very slowly but very surely progressing. I'm no stranger to pain pills. Those and benzos were my thing.
I've been missing the vicodin over the last few days. Usually pms brings on those kinds of feelings. That was when I would abuse them the heaviest.
Suboxone is definitely different. It doesn't make me feel high. I often forget to take it. But I don't have the PAWS symptoms that I had before or the constant cravings. Still taking the same tiny amount.
I'm not missing days at work, so I can have my be alone with my pills days... I'm way more productive at work and I work harder and smarter. I have a VERY stressful job!!
I'm alot more interested in what's going on around me instead of what's going on "inside" me. I'm nicer but my husband says I'm more "matter of fact". Not exactly sure what to make of that.
The first lesson I learned is that I am definitely not in control of the vicodin anymore. I am powerless as soon as I take that first pill. Took me a long time to come to terms with that. For as long as I live, I will never be able to take pain pills responsibly. Period. The higher power is a tough one too. I go back and forth on that one, not sure what I believe.
I'm still reading on here, I have alot of recovery work books and things to study.
I am still around and I'm doing ok!!
I started taking suboxone on July 9th. My last vicodin was on the 4th of July. I had been on a path over the last few years that was very slowly but very surely progressing. I'm no stranger to pain pills. Those and benzos were my thing.
I've been missing the vicodin over the last few days. Usually pms brings on those kinds of feelings. That was when I would abuse them the heaviest.
Suboxone is definitely different. It doesn't make me feel high. I often forget to take it. But I don't have the PAWS symptoms that I had before or the constant cravings. Still taking the same tiny amount.
I'm not missing days at work, so I can have my be alone with my pills days... I'm way more productive at work and I work harder and smarter. I have a VERY stressful job!!
I'm alot more interested in what's going on around me instead of what's going on "inside" me. I'm nicer but my husband says I'm more "matter of fact". Not exactly sure what to make of that.
The first lesson I learned is that I am definitely not in control of the vicodin anymore. I am powerless as soon as I take that first pill. Took me a long time to come to terms with that. For as long as I live, I will never be able to take pain pills responsibly. Period. The higher power is a tough one too. I go back and forth on that one, not sure what I believe.
I'm still reading on here, I have alot of recovery work books and things to study.
I am still around and I'm doing ok!!
Great to hear from you Peanut and I'm glad things are going pretty well overall. Those cravings are going to hit but each time you do something different, choose not to use, you are making yourself that much stronger!
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