What a friggin rollercoaster it has been. I took my last hydro this day last week. It's been really bad, but every day is a bit better. For instance, I haven't actually cried yet today. I'm close a lot, but I can choke it back and move on.
The other good sign is that I had a prescription refill which I had tried to cancel arrive at my door this morning. I refused it and told them to ship it back.
I'm AMAZED that I had something that would immediately alleve my pain/depression/anguish and yet, I pushed it away. You guys had BETTER be right that things do improve and that a sober life is a better life, because if I'm not feeling better by this time next year, I'm gonna personally give each of you a slap. JUST KIDDING! I KNOW it will get better and I'm looking forward to every minute of it.