Great news!!!!
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Great news!!!!
Someone in my past showed up at my place tonight with a "surprise" and I struggled for a while between using it or dumping it down the toilet. I felt so numb and shaky and it was such a difficult thing. I decided to.....
DUMP IT!!!! I just walked in there and did it, didn't even try to think about it. No way was I gonna let that addiction win over me today.......NOT TODAY. So I threw it down the drain. That was ***SO*** hard to do!!!!!!!!!! But I DUMPED IT!!! That is a miracle in my life right now!! I have something good to tell my friends at the meeting now!!! I can say that I went through that challenge and I made it through. I had a great friend walk me through it tonight. And that made all the difference in the world!!! I FEEL SO FREE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!
Love and hugs,
Cheryl
DUMP IT!!!! I just walked in there and did it, didn't even try to think about it. No way was I gonna let that addiction win over me today.......NOT TODAY. So I threw it down the drain. That was ***SO*** hard to do!!!!!!!!!! But I DUMPED IT!!! That is a miracle in my life right now!! I have something good to tell my friends at the meeting now!!! I can say that I went through that challenge and I made it through. I had a great friend walk me through it tonight. And that made all the difference in the world!!! I FEEL SO FREE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!
Love and hugs,
Cheryl
That was a huge step forward! 
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Thanks for the support! That was definitely a God moment. 
There is my example of God doing for me what I could not do for myself.
I am so glad that I did. When I woke up this morning, I looked out of my window at the sun rising and I thought to myself, "Thank you God that I did not use last night!" I woke up this morning ready to start the day. If I would have used, I would have been feeling horrible and depressed right now with tons of shame.
But, I stayed clean and sober last night despite the hardships. I am stronger today because I didn't use last night. I am really getting into my recovery this time! I am finallly putting my recovery first this time around! It makes all the difference in the world!
Love and hugs,
Cheryl
There is my example of God doing for me what I could not do for myself. I am so glad that I did. When I woke up this morning, I looked out of my window at the sun rising and I thought to myself, "Thank you God that I did not use last night!" I woke up this morning ready to start the day. If I would have used, I would have been feeling horrible and depressed right now with tons of shame.
But, I stayed clean and sober last night despite the hardships. I am stronger today because I didn't use last night. I am really getting into my recovery this time! I am finallly putting my recovery first this time around! It makes all the difference in the world!
Love and hugs,
Cheryl
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Originally Posted by AngelHugs
the hardships. I am stronger today because I didn't use last night. I am really getting into my recovery this time! I am finallly putting my recovery first this time around! It makes all the difference in the world!
Love and hugs,
Cheryl
Love and hugs,
Cheryl
Way to go AngelHugs, putting your recovery and you first does make all the difference in the world
I hope the old friends get the message about the new you
verrrrry soon!!!
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Cheryl- First... congrats on doing the next right thing...
But there was something I wanted to add (and please don't take this the wrong way... i'm just trying to help). I'm wondering why this person came over? And why you let them in the door (friend or not) if they are an active user? You need to be extremely careful and aware of the people, places, and situations you put yourself in, in early sobriety. You're doing so good, and I don't want you to use or put yourself in situations where you are tempted to use; when you have a choice otherwise. Please understand that I'm not trying to bash you, but rather offer some helpful advice for next time.
G' Bless
Anna
But there was something I wanted to add (and please don't take this the wrong way... i'm just trying to help). I'm wondering why this person came over? And why you let them in the door (friend or not) if they are an active user? You need to be extremely careful and aware of the people, places, and situations you put yourself in, in early sobriety. You're doing so good, and I don't want you to use or put yourself in situations where you are tempted to use; when you have a choice otherwise. Please understand that I'm not trying to bash you, but rather offer some helpful advice for next time.
G' Bless
Anna
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