ThatWasTheOldMe

Today is day 16.
I believe I had either pancreatitis, gastritis, or just prolonged withdrawal this time. But it took me a full 10 days to feel somewhat normal this time. Horrible stomach pain and anxiety for the first 5-6 days.

Then off and on stomach pain especially after eating until day 11 or so. Been normal since. And I even went to the ER on day one and they gave me phenobarbitol. The point is, the addiction only gets worse.

It's either drink or live. I choose to live. Every aspect of my life is better without alcohol. I even wake up early to get to work early every day. And my occupation involves using my brain, and I can actually do that if I'm living sober. Alcohol would bring only misery and probably homelessness or death. I want none of that.

PS --> This new thread bug is irritating :P

ThatWasTheOldMe

Something is definitely wrong with the way the SR server is parsing the content of new posts.

Dee74

congrats on day 16 TWTOM

If you’re having trouble posting a new thread, use a one word title - then you can go back and edit the title to whatever you like.

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Hodd

Hi TWTOM, well done on 16 👍

I thought you were on a longer run than that. Did something happen to make you drink again?

fishkiller

Me too!
I hope you find a way to remain that way

zoobadger

The stomach pain is just one more reason to make "this time" the "last time."

Offthemast

Yeah. Imagine that pain for close to a year. Luckily I healed. Next time maybe it is permanent.

Zencat

Good TWTOM

Relapses can become progressive until the point of liver failure or something deadly. Best to never pick-up ever again.

DeplorableDog

The title of this thread is what drives me. I try to see something everyday that just would not be possible or in the case of a bad occurrence what would be worse if I was drinking. I posted in another thread how a tractor I was operating puked its entire tank of hydraulic fluid up because a hose was not clamped. Had I still been drinking that would have set my stress level through the roof. But being sober I cleaned it up, laughed about it and still completed my audit on the machine. The relaxation of being quit can be forgotten which leads to complacency which leads to a relapse. I am trying very hard not to forget how the sober life is better.

Delilah1

You’re doing great! I’m glad you are starting to feel better physically.

Pekelover2

Good stuff! It sounds like the worst of it is over.

ThatWasTheOldMe

I don't have an excuse.
I have alcohol use disorder and I simply can't safely ingest the substance.

I'm not perfect, but I'm feeling at peace again.

ThatWasTheOldMe

I'm sorry you had to endure that

Hodd

^^ It’s not a matter of having an excuse, TWTOM 🙂 We’re all friends here when it comes to that.

But we all have alcohol use disorder, not some of us luckily have fended it off long term. No one here’s cured as such. You don’t want this cycle of drinking and quitting. Maybe look at why you drank that recent time.

aasharon90

SR, recovery support sent your way TWTOM

VikingGF

Congrats on 3 weeks, TWTOM. Stay close and be sure to have a solid plan to keep you on the right path. What have you added to your toolbox?

Dee74

Using AUD as a reason for relapsing is not empowering....using it as a reason to stay sober is

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DriGuy

Let's get it straight. Alcohol is not cunning, baffling, and powerful. Alcoholics are cunning and baffling. I was under the control of a mindless substance that had no ulterior motive or need to control. For me that was humiliating and high on my list of reasons to quit. Pouring a chemical substance down my throat to induce a mindless fog was a waste of my life, and I felt all the more pathetic understanding that.

Mags1

Congratulations on three weeks TWTOM. Sobriety is a much better rush.

Robbie64

Congratulations on day 16 TWTOM

The first two weeks after stopping drinking I would have all sorts of problems, from withdrawal, chronic sweating, upset stomach. dreadful anxiety, insomnia, excessive mood swings, a flushed face, bad skin, bad breath and a whole host more. As you know, the body doesn't just pull around in a few days and the more you drink - and the older you get - the longer each time it takes to start to feel vaguely normal. The third week was often my downfall because the cravings were strong but the memory of how I had been was fading. You've got a good positive approach to staying sober. Don't let the memory of how you felt the first two weeks fade as that will help you if / when the cravings hit.

I'm glad you sorted out the problem of being able to start a new thread. Starting a thread with just a one word title seems to work for posters experiencing this problem.