Jessie1991

I am using blues (fentanyl) and meth almost daily and I’m on methadone. I take Valium for my severe panic disorder. I need encouragement to at least get a clean UA for my doctors office. That’s a couple weeks away. I want to stay clean but I’m in a relationship where we both use. When I met him he was clean. for two years I dated this man clean and then he relapsed two years ago. We’ve been together 4 years and he’s abusive now and just isn’t the man I wanted to grow old with. I don’t know how to leave or how to say goodbye. But I want my kid back and I want my life back. Ya know????

RAL

Hi Jessie
Welcome to SR. This is a great place for support and friendship

aasharon90

Keep posting as many SR members will offer guidance,
suggestions, encouragement, understanding, love and
care as you learn how to get the help needed to kick
your addiction and gain a healthier, happier life you
are striving to get.

Anna

Hi Jessie, Welcome!

I hope you decide to get clean for good for yourself and for your child. The guy you're with is abusing you and abuse is never okay. Taking care of yourself is really important and getting away from the situation you're in will be so helpful in your recovery. Please look at the links below. There is lots of help and information about shelters for abused women.

Domestic Abuse Definedhttp://www.thehotline.org/is-this-abuse/abuse-defined/

National Domestic Abuse Hotline (US):

http://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.womenshealth.gov/relatio...afety/get-help

Canada:

http://endingviolencecanada.org/getting-help/
https://www.sheltersafe.ca/find-help/#call

UK:

https://www.womensaid.org.uk
https://www.nationaldahelpline.org.uk

Europe:

http://www.cosc.ie/en/COSC/Pages/WP08000009

Australia:

https://au.reachout.com/articles/dom...olence-support

Chile, Colombia, Peru, Ecuador, Venezuela:

http://www.gnws.org/index.php/find-help/find-shelters

Hevyn

Jessie - I'm so glad you've decided you want to get clean, & that you found us.
This is a wonderful place to be, for non-judgmental encouragement.
I hope you'll stay with us. You can change your life & rise above this sad time.

RecklessDrunk

Rehab might be the best thing. A clean break from the boyfriend and the drugs. Sometimes you have to take a step back to move ahead. The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The next best is right now.

Zencat

Welcome to SR Jessie

Abuse in any form is unacceptable. You can change the circumstances you are in now if you stop using today.
Be brave and stop using now. There is hope in recovery.

Bekindalways

(((((Jessie1991))))))) Those parenthesis are supposed to indicate a hug! You sound like you are hoeing one hell of a row.

Let us know how you are doing whether you are clean or not.

ThatWasTheOldMe

Hi Jessie,

That's a dangerous cocktail of drugs. Please utilize the resources others have linked here to seek professional help.

As Zen says, there is hope in recovery and it is NOT okay for anyone to abuse you.

Farrier

I agree