Keep on keeping on
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Keep on keeping on
Today is 121 days AF . I don’t miss the hangovers and all the other bs I’ve done while drinking and later regretted . I’ve known for years my drinking was self destructive for me. I went to inpatient detox and rehab the first time in my life Oct 29th. I didn’t want rehab but I needed it I realize now. I finally surrendered and tried a few medications which I always refused to do to in the past .Denial is a powerful thing and looking back now I wouldn’t trade my experience there and people I met from all walks of life and things I learned from others and about me there for anything.I only regret is it took 25 years of abuse.
. My life isn’t all rainbows and sunshine and I have moments but I have tools and knowledge now that help me . I’ve never made it this far and this time it just feels different.My relationships and health have improved so much but I’m not going to lie it’s like saying goodbye to and old friend . I mourned the loss because it’s been a part of my whole life .It’s was always there in times like a death or a wedding or just about anything .I’m sure you all know any excuse to drink. I was asked a question to name one good thing booze has ever done for me or in my life that was positive and I couldn’t name just one . I can name an unlimited amount of bad.
My psychiatrist asked me did I ever think I could drink just one or two in the future. I said nope I didn’t drink because I liked the taste or anything like that I was all about the affect. It blows my mind the amount of alcohol I used to consume in a day . I’m just going to keep on keeping on .
. My life isn’t all rainbows and sunshine and I have moments but I have tools and knowledge now that help me . I’ve never made it this far and this time it just feels different.My relationships and health have improved so much but I’m not going to lie it’s like saying goodbye to and old friend . I mourned the loss because it’s been a part of my whole life .It’s was always there in times like a death or a wedding or just about anything .I’m sure you all know any excuse to drink. I was asked a question to name one good thing booze has ever done for me or in my life that was positive and I couldn’t name just one . I can name an unlimited amount of bad.
My psychiatrist asked me did I ever think I could drink just one or two in the future. I said nope I didn’t drink because I liked the taste or anything like that I was all about the affect. It blows my mind the amount of alcohol I used to consume in a day . I’m just going to keep on keeping on .
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Congratulations dawgsforlife. You have grown in so many positive ways. Best wishes for continued growth and success. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and journey here. It helps all who are striving to achieve a better life.
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Wonderful post, Dawgs. Congrats on your 121 days free.
I, too, drank many years & felt that I was losing a friend & comforter. I stopped feeling that way during my first year sober. As the fog lifted, the reality of how I had sabotaged myself began to be clear. I held myself back from growing & maturing in a normal way. I put myself in many dangerous situations & took risks that could have cost me my life. In the end it brought nothing but misery & regret. I'm so glad we have reclaimed our lives.
I, too, drank many years & felt that I was losing a friend & comforter. I stopped feeling that way during my first year sober. As the fog lifted, the reality of how I had sabotaged myself began to be clear. I held myself back from growing & maturing in a normal way. I put myself in many dangerous situations & took risks that could have cost me my life. In the end it brought nothing but misery & regret. I'm so glad we have reclaimed our lives.
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