Close Call
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Close Call
Morning all.....
Got so close to buying a bottle of gin yesterday. 'Mothers Ruin'. Maximum stress with my daughter's mental health. Felt I didn't care anymore. Even picked up the phone for home delivery, but stopped myself. Kept stopping myself. Played the tape, and am so very grateful this morning.
And this morning I cared again.
Thanks for being there SR. 🌺
Got so close to buying a bottle of gin yesterday. 'Mothers Ruin'. Maximum stress with my daughter's mental health. Felt I didn't care anymore. Even picked up the phone for home delivery, but stopped myself. Kept stopping myself. Played the tape, and am so very grateful this morning.
And this morning I cared again.
Thanks for being there SR. 🌺
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Back at you Ican, and walking with you least. ❤️ Robbie, too.
I'll have 2 years in December, and this the first time the thought has been sooo compelling. Bloody 'orrible.
So very grateful.
Top tip from Steely. Don't fall for the siren song.
I'll have 2 years in December, and this the first time the thought has been sooo compelling. Bloody 'orrible.
So very grateful.
Top tip from Steely. Don't fall for the siren song.
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Oh, Steely - how scary. I'm so thankful you didn't cave.
I did it when I had 3 yrs. sober. I went out with someone who didn't know I was an alcoholic. It was 'just a glass of wine'. The next day I didn't feel too bad, so figured I could now handle it. Off I went for 7 yrs., ending in a dui & all sorts of misery & chaos. So that one little slip led to a living hell. Glad you didn't take a chance! We just never know.
I did it when I had 3 yrs. sober. I went out with someone who didn't know I was an alcoholic. It was 'just a glass of wine'. The next day I didn't feel too bad, so figured I could now handle it. Off I went for 7 yrs., ending in a dui & all sorts of misery & chaos. So that one little slip led to a living hell. Glad you didn't take a chance! We just never know.
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That's how it's done. I'm at eight years, Steely, and I haven't seriously considered buying any but I'm like Hevyn and had that One Happy Hour drink after a long stretch of sobriety. That led to seven more years of drinking that I really didn't need to do.
All I have to do is not have that first one. Easy. Diligence, vigilance, mindfulness. Every day, amen.
All I have to do is not have that first one. Easy. Diligence, vigilance, mindfulness. Every day, amen.
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Yeah, even at two years these tire spikes on the highway to recovery, can jump out at us without notice, so we have to keep our eyes on the road ahead at all times. At 25 years I still have an occasional thought that it would be nice to kick back with a drink, but watching the road is now so second nature that it's more like making a minor steering adjustment without all the heart pounding terror of a near miss.
But avoiding an early recovery collision deserves a congratulations, because each time we successfully face one of these near misses, it makes us more prepared for the next one. It's as important as adding another year to your "score" IMO. As we strengthen our ability to stay alert, the fear diminishes.
But avoiding an early recovery collision deserves a congratulations, because each time we successfully face one of these near misses, it makes us more prepared for the next one. It's as important as adding another year to your "score" IMO. As we strengthen our ability to stay alert, the fear diminishes.
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Oh my, what a close call, Steely! I am so glad you resisted!
I threw away over 3 years of sobriety with a glass of wine during a stressful time 4 years ago, and haven't had more than a 4 month stretch of sobriety since then.
I threw away over 3 years of sobriety with a glass of wine during a stressful time 4 years ago, and haven't had more than a 4 month stretch of sobriety since then.
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I'm glad you didn't drink Steely. When those moments hit me on tough and scary day, I try to remember that it will be my finite number of future good and happy days that I will be effing up and ruining if I drink on a bad day. Let's keep planning how we want to feel and what we want to do on our good days my friend.
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Thanks for the support my friends.
Found that the reward found in waking up next day sober was far greater reward than any found in the false promise of alcohol. And it lasts, and grows. So happy 😁 I resisted.
Thanks fellow travellers.
Found that the reward found in waking up next day sober was far greater reward than any found in the false promise of alcohol. And it lasts, and grows. So happy 😁 I resisted.
Thanks fellow travellers.
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